0:00 Hi, everyone.
0:01 Welcome back to the Change Your Mind Podcast.
0:03 I'm your host, Kris Ashley.
0:04 And I am so excited for my guest today and I can't wait for you to hear all the amazing things he's going to say as well.
0:11 Hi, I'm Kris.
0:13 When I was younger, I went through trauma that caused me to feel broken and lost.
0:18 But my life changed after I had a spiritual awakening.
0:21 Since then, I've dedicated my life to studying and learning from masters all around the world that have helped me to create a life of fulfillment and abundance beyond my wildest dreams.
0:31 Now, I'm dedicated to sharing everything I've learned so that you don't have to suffer for decades.
0:35 Like I did, I've seen people's lives completely transform and I share it all right here.
0:43 So I have Krishnanand on with me Krishnanand on.
0:45 I would love for you to just tell us a little bit about who you are.
0:49 What's your bio for listeners who might not have ever heard of you before?
0:54 Sure.
0:55 Well, I became a spiritual mystic when I was a child.
1:01 So, and I was pretty intensely involved.
1:04 I wasn't, it wasn't just a hobby for me from early on I was studying, I was a scholar.
1:08 I was, I was kind of danced in school and things like that.
1:11 So I had a good intellect and so I was always drawn to not academic things.
1:16 I was drawn to spiritual and mystical things.
1:18 And so I became something of an expert.
1:19 And then by the time I was in my late teens, so I wasn't just scholarly learning and studying them.
1:25 I wanted to know more and more and more.
1:27 I could not, I'm a, I'm a knowledge attic and I want the deep things and I want more of it and I want, whenever I find them, like I wanna go down that rabbit, I wanna go even deeper.
1:35 So I wanna go to the origins of it, the source, the truth of it.
1:38 And then also I want to put it to use.
1:41 I wanna practice it.
1:42 So I meet a lot of people throughout my life that they want the knowledge and they want the theories and they enjoy that and we all get high out.
1:49 But I mean, it gives you like an, an, an endorphin rush, you know, but people don't, but then people start to wonder why they're not progressing spiritually.
1:58 And that's why I've kind of what I've been doing for many years now.
2:01 Is that a because you're getting knowledge, but you're not putting into practice, you've got, you can't go, you can't sign up at the gym, you actually got to go and lift some weights and do some stuff, you know.
2:09 So it's about putting it to use.
2:11 And so all my spiritual work and studies was what to use.
2:15 I wasn't just drawn to alchemy.
2:16 I became a master alchemist and I mean, a laboratory in my house where I almost blew the whole thing up.
2:22 Ok.
2:22 And I was making stuff.
2:24 Yeah.
2:24 I was still doing practical alchemy, spiritual alchemy.
2:26 And I, and I, and I absolutely loved it and same thing as a bak to Yogi.
2:29 I didn't just read the books.
2:31 I went to India, I went to pilgrimages.
2:33 I toured, I toured the country, I went to Nepal.
2:36 I mean, I just went to the sacred sites, these places that many people never even heard of.
2:40 And I spent time in there and I sat and meditated in them and just absorbed what they were and sti them before I went while I was there to get that experience and learn what the practices and methods were to develop spiritual and grow.
2:51 Yeah.
2:51 Absolutely.
2:52 And then once you've been there and watched that path, it gives you so much more insight and ability to be able to help others along the journey too.
3:01 Right.
3:01 It does.
3:02 And you just want more and more and more.
3:04 And yes, of course, of course, all spiritualists, I mean, anybody, they find something that they're really into, you could say that's a profound effect on them when to share with other people.
3:13 And you got to kind of know when to, and when not to, you know, but for sure it's, it's, again, it's, it's a bit of an addiction, the more I pilgrimage to India and Egypt and, and around the world, the more I wanted it, the more I need to do more and more and more.
3:26 And then finally I got to a place after my Indie Express, particularly several years ago.
3:31 And I'm like, you know what, I don't really need to travel or go anywhere anymore because I saw what I wanna see.
3:36 Like, I've, I've taken that and not that there's always more, but I've taken all the big Truy turn in and now it's time to and has been for some time now to continue to write, to teach, to mentor for those who are having their dark night of the soul and lost themselves.
3:49 And that's what it's all about is that my dark night of the soul had gone on for, for most of my life and enlightened masters and gurus and stages, not, not, not other worldly beings from other celestials places.
4:02 I'm saying, literally, literally Buddhas and stages that walk this planet in physical form, you know, and so they give us all these teachings and so being able to, to have guidance from that.
4:12 And I'm like, well, what are the people that don't have that?
4:14 I'm not one of those, but maybe I can show them what they showed me.
4:18 I love that so much and I've been on a similar journey.
4:21 It's, you're a truth seeker like I am and like you said, you get addicted to it and you just want more and more.
4:27 And it's, I like to say, it's like every new teacher that I find is like a new door opening in an unending hallway.
4:34 Like you just get hooked.
4:35 And no, I, I just, I love that so much and I relate to that so much and I, I love that you're teaching others.
4:43 This is why my reference to my death experience and what I, what I travel to within the portal is about the in between state, between life and death.
4:54 And that's where I was during my coma.
4:55 That's what I visit regularly.
4:57 Now.
4:57 It's been ongoing for many years.
4:59 And so I refer to the, the, the spiritual presences that are within the portal as Akashic agents, you know, the, the, the Akashic, the Akashic records.
5:09 So the Akashic records again, there's that addiction.
5:12 We want Akashic records has all the true knowledge, all the essential truth, all the eternal truth, everything is there past present and future.
5:20 And so we want to connect to that and you know, and again, it's not just that you just want more like you want, you won't, you eventually you get to a point where you will not settle, you can recognize the shit from the shine and you can, we through it and you can get the right stuff.
5:33 And that's the thing is, even since I was young, I was very cautious and very passionate, very angry.
5:42 And sometimes when I was younger that I sensed that so much of what people were teaching were not the right stuff.
5:48 And I kind of followed my intuition and instinct and again, went down those rabbit holes, kept searching and searching and made sure that I was finding the eternal truth.
5:55 Not somebody's version of them.
5:56 Yeah.
5:57 Absolutely.
5:58 And I like what you said too is that like, you can take all of these truths that you've learned and synthesize them because not everyone is eeking out like you and I are right.
6:06 Not everyone is reading all the books and going on the pilgrimages and studying under teachers.
6:11 So you can bring that knowledge to people that aren't doing that.
6:15 That's, that's my, excuse me, that's my style is I have been since I was very young, been able to communicate things that are very hard for many people to understand in ways that are accessible to them.
6:27 I've kind of come from both levels.
6:29 I have this high intellect, but at the same time, I'm just, I'm just an old street wave Strome with doping.
6:35 They used to live on the streets.
6:36 And like, I mean, I just, you know, I just live, I live, I live a rough life.
6:39 So I kind of come from both areas so I can communicate to both.
6:42 OK.
6:43 So I wanna, I wanna talk about all of that first before we get into your near death experience and all of that.
6:49 So first I want to know you, you started all of this, this quest as a child which is so unique.
6:56 You know, most people don't find spirituality or mysticism until they're much older.
7:01 So what was it about your childhood?
7:03 Were you exposed to it?
7:04 Was your family into it?
7:05 Like what, what at that spark?
7:07 Hold on to your head here because it's going to get a little wild.
7:10 I love it.
7:12 My first narrative experience was at birth.
7:14 I was born a nuo baby caught around my neck.
7:17 A nal baby caught around my neck.
7:19 So I was born basically dead.
7:21 They revived me instantly.
7:22 And so I didn't know this until I started learning about NDE several years ago.
7:26 That clearly what I had was NDE because I had all of the, all of the, the side effects features that come along with an NDE from the time I was born.
7:35 So I'm not exaggerating.
7:38 I'm not making things up.
7:39 I don't know how to say it but to say it.
7:41 So by the time I'm like two and three years old, I'm looking to walk around me, looking at my parents and thinking, who are you people?
7:49 You know, my parents, I don't know who my parents are but you're not them.
7:52 Who, what, what are you all doing?
7:54 Like, what is all this you're wasting time on.
7:56 And I'm, and I'm thinking, you know, they're not, I mean, II I was aware that I was having these very adult thoughts and I'm like, I'm a baby.
8:03 What's wrong with you?
8:04 Like, how can you have these thoughts when you're a baby?
8:05 What's, what's going on?
8:07 And so I learned to keep it very quiet as I learned to be able to talk.
8:10 And so I was having these very high and deep thoughts and I just figured I was crazy and I figured early on, I was like, don't talk about it because you think you're crazy and they'll take you somewhere.
8:20 I was like, how do you know they take crazy?
8:22 No, anywhere.
8:22 You're a little baby, you're your child.
8:25 And so I was already fathoming and wondering and seeking.
8:30 So basically what it is, it's called song scars in the, in the language of song script.
8:34 Some scars are basically your carry over tendencies and awarenesses.
8:38 So most of your spiritual knowledge when you learn it, you don't feel like you're learning it brand new at all.
8:43 Do you, you feel like you're remembering it?
8:44 Exactly.
8:45 Right.
8:45 And that is because you are because you did learn.
8:48 And so what we're doing is we're resurrecting those things that are already putting up from past lifetimes.
8:53 And so we're able to access those and again in the Akashic records and within ourselves.
8:57 And so that's where in order to watch what it was.
9:00 I didn't, I was pursuing it from the time I was a very young child.
9:04 And then of course, I had my first religious experience when I was,, 10 11 years old and I was very angry at the world.
9:10 I'm like, these people are a bunch of hypocrites, all the rule and all the, all the thing, all the bad stuff in the world is all in the name of God.
9:17 And I'm like, what is wrong with these people?
9:18 Right?
9:19 And again, I'm, I'm still a kid, you know, and, and so I began to really study theology and religion, not because I was into it, but because I wanted to debate these people in person and defeat them and show them how long the hypocritical they, I want to do it in person.
9:33 And, and I did as a, as a child to embarrass them, right?
9:36 That's not a very, very, that's not a very spiritual attitude either though.
9:40 And so as I went deeper into spiritual knowledge and theology to learn how to debunk it.
9:46 I found the truth.
9:47 I found the eternal truth.
9:48 You know, I mean the the sage and guru Yeshua Jesus said, knocking, ye shall find seeking, it shall be open to you.
9:56 He doesn't say sit on your ass and wait for it.
9:58 He says, seek and ye shall find and so as I sought, I continued to find that's amazing.
10:06 Yeah.
10:06 And so I got into, then I got into the occult when I was in my preteens and again drawn to, of course, I was in the Black Sabbath and all kinds of fun, dark stuff.
10:14 And that was kind of fun times.
10:15 But my friends are into it.
10:17 Kind of like as teenagers would be.
10:19 But me, I'm like, getting ingredients and potions and making things.
10:22 I'm doing an alchemy lab.
10:24 I'm making potions.
10:24 I'm doing witchcraft.
10:25 I'm doing spells.
10:26 I'm doing incantations.
10:27 I'm not doing anything evil.
10:28 I'm doing things to elevate my conscience because I'm intrigued by it, you know, so I'm practicing it.
10:32 My friend, my friends are like, OK, you're a little bit too serious, you know, and I'm like, well, I thought we were like, this is just like some kind of little happy thing to do on a Saturday afternoon, man.
10:41 I remember this stuff you don't want to know about it.
10:43 And so I continue to develop that.
10:45 And so then by the time I was in my twenties, I had my first Kundalini event, which is a major one, full blown Kundalini.
10:52 And then as I got into ceremonial magic became a third degree ceremonial magician with the auto temple oriented.
10:59 I became a master alchemist with formal college.
11:02 My mentor was Dennis Hawk.
11:03 I don't know if you know what that is, but he is probably the leading alchemist throughout the world.
11:07 And this and this, these last several generations, he's up and he was my personal mentor and you know why?
11:12 Because I demanded I met him and I said, I'm only taking this course.
11:15 If you become my, my personal mentor, he goes, I don't do that.
11:17 I tour in le I write, I don't do it.
11:19 I said that's all right because you drive a hard bargain.
11:21 I get, you got it amazing.
11:23 I love that.
11:23 See, there's for listeners, I talk about this all the time.
11:26 You have to take action, right?
11:28 You have to step outside of your comfort zone and, and advocate for yourself.
11:33 That's how things happen.
11:34 Seek and you shall find.
11:35 Yeah, that's, and the main thing, the main thing is not just physically go out there and look, you've got to from your heart, wish it and will it and desire and, and draw it to you.
11:45 And so that's the thing is when I feel something, when I long for something spiritual, it's not just a like or desire, it becomes overwhelming like I can't breathe anymore.
11:54 I can't, I can't think.
11:55 I can't feel all and I'm begging and pleading and demanding spiritual forces.
11:59 I'm saying, I'm not begging, I'm not praying.
12:01 I'm not asking, I'm demanding.
12:02 You come to me in my life now.
12:04 Yeah, you won't take no for an answer.
12:06 There's no doubt in your mind.
12:08 I love it.
12:09 So, just for listeners who don't know much about alchemy.
12:12 Can you just really quickly, just give a little rundown on alchemy.
12:16 What do you do with it on the surface level?
12:19 What pose most people would understand is it's about turning lead into gold, right?
12:22 Ok.
12:23 And there is a practical alchemy.
12:25 That's whole one school, practical alchemy is the potions, the tinctures, the ointments, the elixirs and all the things that you make to be able to stay and sustain health and all these other things.
12:33 And you do it in a magical way.
12:35 In other words, you do with astrology with a whole bunch of other mystical properties so that it's synthesized with all of the forces that are out there.
12:41 But then there's, then there's spiritual alchemy and spiritual alchemy is the true alchemy.
12:47 And it is about lead into gold.
12:48 It's about the leaden gross spirit of the human material mind to be transformed into spiritual consciousness of gold.
12:55 So the lead is the human experience and the gold is the spiritual experience.
13:00 So what alchemy describes, it's hermetic and so it's Ancient Egypt.
13:05 It's before that and it's seven stages sound familiar seven chakras.
13:10 So we see this again and again and again, seven notes on the musical scale.
13:14 So there's seven stages where you're basically taking yourself from where you are and you're eliminating and you're destroying everything we did.
13:23 You know about yourself, your ego, your desires and all that, and you're basically rebuilding it from scratch it's very, it's very intense.
13:29 So all the yoga system is the same way.
13:32 Chakra yoga, Kundalini yoga, tantra yoga, all paths of yoga really are about destroying yourself, your ego self and being able to be reborn and transformed.
13:40 So, alchemy is about that.
13:42 And that is the Western version, I call the western version of yoga, yoga.
13:46 And so mental yoga, not, not the, the, the movement yoga.
13:50 And so it's the western hermetic version of that.
13:53 And as the Sanskrit, eternal true San in Dar traveled from the far east or the east of India to the west.
14:02 In ancient times, it became Judaism, it became Kabbalah, it became alchemy, it became all these things and it just slowly got a little bit change around, not, not change as in different, as in, in a bad way.
14:13 It's cultural, you know, people have to use different analogies, different ways of teaching and practicing because they're in a different region, you know, and so it kind of modifies a little bit and that's what it is.
14:22 So all these paths, what I teach in my books and all my work is that I'm showing the unity of these things, not the separateness, how they're alike.
14:31 And they're all teaching, they're all teaching us one thing, spiritual consciousness, divine love, consciousness, I love that.
14:38 You said that because I was just gonna ask you that you've studied all these paths and all these gone to all these places and you know, is there one that you're more drawn to or are you just seeing the, the, the similarities in all of them and how they're all connected?
14:53 Because that is a fantastic question that I don't get asked enough.
14:57 I mean, I wish it was always bad because everyone saw someone ask me.
15:00 So you're a master, you're not a master expert in all these paths.
15:03 Which one do you use?
15:05 Do you use them all?
15:07 And you can't because the bottom line, if you want to succeed at something, anything in life, you gotta be exclusive to it.
15:12 You can't just do it half ass, right?
15:14 You gotta be completely committed to it.
15:16 Right.
15:17 Right.
15:17 Whether you're passing a test or driving a car, if you're not paying full attention and doing it committed completely to it, then something bad is gonna happen.
15:24 Spirituality is no different.
15:25 And so we do have to select a path that suits us particularly.
15:30 So me personally, I gain and I've always benefited from having knowledge of all of them and seeing how they all synthesize together.
15:37 But ultimately, I see one set of eternal truths.
15:40 And so I do advise my clients, I don't say look, you gotta follow my path, which for me is back to yo, OK, I'm not saying you gotta follow my path.
15:49 I did Kundalini Yoga and I had profound experience all these kind of things, what I, what I do with my students and clients is I say, listen, let's talk for a while.
15:57 Let's find out which, which of the patterns gonna suit you for a while.
16:00 Now, I did all these things and I wasn't just messing around again.
16:03 It wasn't just because I couldn't make up my mind.
16:06 It's, I was drawn to each one.
16:07 So basically, I feel like with western organized religion, I started in kindergarten and then I moved up to intermediate and I went to middle school and I went to some of the occult and mysticism.
16:22 And then I graduated into college and I went into some of the Eastern path.
16:26 Then I went postgraduate and went into the high forms of by.
16:30 All right.
16:30 So back to yoga as you're, you're postgraduate, I think it is.
16:34 I think it's a graduation pride.
16:35 And again, that's really just about absolute, just love.
16:38 And I know it sounds corny.
16:39 But I'm saying when you love the divine and you, and you simply form a union with the divine, do you, do you chant and sing and all the things too?
16:48 Then I do my daily meditation that I'm pretty regular with is and it's usually twice a day, evening and morning, morning and evening.
16:57 And so yes, I like Kirton and these kins are not just some low, there's no Sun Kirin which is just J sh A we, we hear Ram JJ Rama J Rama J Krishna J Krishna and the, the call and response.
17:15 But what I like are called Pod Kirton.
17:18 Pub kittens have verses and tell stories and they're beautiful and they're wonderful and they give me absorbed in the, in a, in a store because otherwise my mind just trying to get bored, you know.
17:26 So now I'm saying Kirton, I love it, but I can't stay focused because my mind wanders.
17:30 But pub Kirton has stories to it has versus, and the ones that I, the one that I use are written by Ross Saints when in India over thousands of years.
17:39 So the original, the original deals.
17:41 That's amazing.
17:42 I've been to regular Kirsan, but I had no idea that there was any other besides the call and response and which are beautiful but oh no, these are call and response.
17:50 It's just the difference is that they're versus OK.
17:53 So you non sensation.
17:54 No little.
17:55 Yeah, non really means name.
17:57 And so Naaman Kitten is, is Jay Rama Jay A you're saying Ram's name and then just then to respond with Jay Krishna J Krishna, right?
18:06 Shri Rama shri Rama Sri Krishna.
18:08 So, but the, that's a Namsan Kirton Hodson Kirchen P AD pods Kirton is verses that tell stories that are called Lela.
18:17 Lela are the divine acts that saints and SAGES and avatars do when they're here.
18:23 It sounds beautiful.
18:24 I'm gonna have to go to one that sounds, they're fun and they're wonderful.
18:27 And again, the stories sometimes are funny sometimes are just sometimes they're deep, sometimes are intense.
18:32 Sometimes, sometimes they're lonely, sometimes they're about longing.
18:35 So there, there's a couple of wide area.
18:37 Yeah.
18:37 The other thing I love about Bakti is the community too, right?
18:41 Because you always, you do it in community so often for sure.
18:44 I was.
18:44 So I just came back from living at the Ashram.
18:47 I'm living in an Ashram in the US for about 3.5 years and it was a BB to yo community.
18:52 Yes.
18:53 II I say, yo, please forgive me.
18:55 I say yo, because the true Sanskrit pronunciation is yo, that's what I'm used to.
18:59 So yoga is like a British ac expectation of it.
19:02 So, excuse, I'm not, I'm not deliberately saying it wrong.
19:05 I'm saying I've been so used to saying it the correct way that it just comes out the way I know people think.
19:09 I don't know the difference.
19:10 No.
19:10 Thanks for clarifying that as, and as someone who owns a yoga studio, I appreciate that.
19:16 OK.
19:17 Well, there you go.
19:17 So it's all about the awesome enough for me.
19:19 Most of the words with the A after the end of the aspirated A is a British British affectation of when they colonialized India, which they kind of miss they change around.
19:28 So it's actually yog it's actually karm, not karma dharm, not Dharma.
19:33 Some words do have the, the, the aspi A but many of them don't.
19:37 Wow.
19:37 Well, thanks for teaching me that I I'm, I'm learning so much from you and there's so much more of I want to talk about with you.
19:43 OK.
19:43 So we, we talked about your childhood and your first near death experience and you mentioned you had a dark night of the soul where you, you're on the streets maybe.
19:51 Is that what you said?
19:53 Yeah.
19:53 I mean, well, that, that wasn't the cause of it.
19:56 I mean, I've been in a dark night of the soul kind of all my life because I just don't want to be in the material world.
20:01 I want to live in the spiritual world.
20:02 That's it.
20:03 They, they they say that people who are here is like volunteers and who are here to like help raise the consciousness of humanity have been a hard time being here.
20:12 What's that?
20:12 Indigo Children?
20:13 Yeah.
20:14 Yeah.
20:14 And just just any kind of volunteers have a hard time being here.
20:18 It's like they don't want to be here because they're not, no one's from here but they, they just really want to go back home.
20:25 There's like a homesickness.
20:26 Right.
20:26 That's right.
20:27 Yeah.
20:27 Listen, dying was easy and being within the portal was great.
20:30 Living is hard and I, I have no desire to be in the mature world.
20:33 None.
20:34 Yeah.
20:34 And, and listen, I've got, I've got, I have adventurous life.
20:37 I've been scuba diving around the world skydiving.
20:39 I ride a motorcycle.
20:41 I have a great time.
20:41 I've had great lovers have a good time in their trouble, but at the same time it's just no matter what you do, it's gonna be temporary, it's gonna be limited and you're always gonna, it, it doesn't feed your soul.
20:52 You, the only thing to feed your soul is spirit, is spirit.
20:55 And so I want my soul fed, not my body, my mind.
20:57 Yeah, absolutely.
20:58 So, let's talk about your near death experience.
21:00 Can you tell us what happened?
21:03 Sure.
21:05 I was in my office as a private practice counselor, which I'd been working in this office for seven years now.
21:12 Under understand that again, I'm not some, some,,, degree caring therapist.
21:18 I started from nothing and I built a reputation just helping people to find through their dark night of the soul and resolve behavioral issues.
21:25 And I became very successful because I really care about what I did that morning.
21:30 I had three clients reschedule, send me a text and that it happens, but not three in a row.
21:36 And suddenly I went from having booked back, book back back all day, having 3.5 hours to kill.
21:41 And I'm like, what am I gonna do?
21:42 So I went on my motorcycle, which I rode to work that day.
21:45 I got on it.
21:45 And then for the first time in seven years in that office, I left to go up the street to get to the clinic, to get a, to get a physical.
21:52 And for the first time in seven years I turned right instead of left.
21:55 And I don't know why, I will never know why I never turned.
21:58 The left turn was an easy quiet side street into town, which I always took the right turn was a busy boulevard with some intersections to this day.
22:08 I don't know why.
22:09 That one day I did.
22:11 And two blocks later, I had a left turn lane just for me with a green turn arrow, the arrow just for me.
22:17 And as he ease out my turn, a full size SUV went through the light hit me in the face killing me instantly.
22:23 Now, miracle number one on one corner is a tire shop and out front of that tire shop is a pastor on the phone.
22:32 He's only there, which I found just a couple of years ago because I didn't know about this until somebody told me about him because then my memory was gone.
22:39 He was only there because his, his daughter kept nagging him to go with her to get tires on her car.
22:44 And he reluctantly went, he saw the accident happen was on his cell phone and thought, oh my God.
22:49 God, put me here for a reason today and he rushed over and he was the first one to pull my body out from under the wreck, excuse the emotions.
22:57 It's not the trauma, Chris, it's when I think of somebody having to see this and witness this and, and be worried and concerned.
23:06 I don't wanna be a source of pain to anybody.
23:07 And then from that moment, I'm a source of pain.
23:09 He pulled me from the wreck and I'm bleeding from my eyes, my nose, my mouth and my ears and I'm dead.
23:15 He reads me on my last rites.
23:17 He begins chanting and reading my last rights on the street on the other corner is a jack in the box restaurant.
23:23 OK.
23:23 At the front of the driver line are two paramedics getting lunch.
23:28 Had they been in the back of the line.
23:29 I wouldn't be here.
23:30 Had they want tacos and burgers that day.
23:32 I wouldn't be here.
23:33 Yeah, they're on the scene in seconds.
23:35 Bring my body back to life.
23:36 Now I say it this way because by the way, Chris, the moment an impact happened, my, my cons my chita, my consciousness bolted.
23:43 I was, I was like, I don't need to be here at all.
23:45 So I laughed.
23:46 So they bring my body back to life.
23:49 I am in a stage three glass galu coma.
23:51 Now let me tell you from an EMT perspective.
23:53 Literally, there's a stage one which is death.
23:55 Stage two isn't much better.
23:57 In stage three, they literally put their shoulders up literally and say it's up to God.
24:01 Now there's nothing we can do.
24:03 It's synonymous with death.
24:04 You can look up stage glass glaucoma.
24:08 I had ad A I brain trauma, diffuse axonal injuries.
24:11 The worst brain trauma known to science.
24:14 I'm in a coma for nine days during, during those entire nine earth days, I'm on the other side, moved in the portal, experiencing complete connection, complete peace, complete spiritual union with something that's divine.
24:31 And I woke up on the ninth day, ninth day, by the way, num as a numerologist, that's a profound number for this particular thing.
24:38 It's an end of a cycle and I woke up on my ninth day and it was on my birthday.
24:43 Wow.
24:44 So we, so now we get these handful of little miracles and of course, later on as I'm suffering for many years from all this, I'm saying this, these Akasha GS agents, hey, you know, if you could put a pass for one corner and a paramedic on the other and make me look at my brother.
24:57 Can you just have the truck miss me?
24:59 Can you just like you couldn't, you couldn't, you just make it miss me?
25:02 Wouldn't that have been easier for all of us?
25:04 That wasn't your soul contract though.
25:06 That's not what you were supposed to go through.
25:08 That's right.
25:09 And so the visit within the portal, my time within the portal, my presence within the portal was not an event that took place while I was in a coma, it continued to go on.
25:24 So every time I go to sleep in the mature world, I was totally constant aware within the portal.
25:28 Wow.
25:29 It was, it was like, so when I would fall asleep in the material world, it was kind of like I was already joining a class.
25:35 I'm already in session.
25:36 I was already in a conversation.
25:37 I wasn't like coming in and then going.
25:39 Oh, hi.
25:39 Nice to see you again to the akashic agents.
25:41 It was like, it was an ongoing thing and I was a joining it.
25:44 So it was apparently already there and then my class was my con was catching up with it.
25:48 So this was so intense for the first four years that I was very confused about living in the mature world.
25:55 I was hard for me to differentiate between where I was at any given time.
25:58 Am I in the ma whether am I within the portal?
26:00 Am I in my living room?
26:01 Where am I right now?
26:03 So it was very hard to reorient back and forth.
26:07 Keep in mind that when Walker from my coma, ok.
26:11 My son and my partner of 10 years were both met in the hospital by two doctors and a priest.
26:18 That's not a good sign.
26:20 They were told if he ever wakes up, which by the way, he won't.
26:23 But if he does, they're trying to ease them into this.
26:28 If he ever wakes up, he wanted to be able to take care of himself.
26:32 He's like he can be vegetative, I'll never be able to walk.
26:36 And when I woke up, I could not walk I could not talk and I don't mean, couldn't walk because I was damaged.
26:42 My physical injuries were rather relatively minimal.
26:45 I couldn't walk because I did not know how my entire identity and memory was deleted.
26:50 I do not.
26:51 So, it's not like I didn't remember how to walk.
26:53 It's like I never learned.
26:55 Yeah.
26:56 Did you know who you were?
26:57 I had no idea who I was.
26:59 Wow.
27:00 The, the nurse stood in front of me and said, in a very condescending way.
27:05 Do you know who this is to, to my, my partner, 10 years, beautiful woman that I was with for 10 years.
27:11 And I hated the nurse.
27:13 I felt she was so while I didn't know who I was, I still knew when I was being condescended to and I really was irritated and I, and so I did not know who she was.
27:22 And so I just said the queen because I thought I was in England.
27:26 Now keep in mind the queen, the reason I thought I was in England, I said to my, my loved ones.
27:31 I said, how do you guys get to England so fast?
27:35 They're like, they thought I was delusional.
27:37 This is because while I'm within the portal, I'm having multiple past life regressions and I'm confused which lifetime I'm in.
27:45 So the three of us all knew each other in England in our last lifetime.
27:48 And I was, and that's why I was, I was, I was like, why do you think your Jeanette or Brandon might in this lifetime?
27:54 Why, why don't you see that?
27:55 You're more than this?
27:56 I was confused.
27:57 I could not, I could not make clear sense of see the lines between past life and this life, but they're all modeled together.
28:05 Yeah, we were your son and your partner in all of the past lives you saw while you were on the other side or in the portal as you call it.
28:11 No.
28:12 So here's what happens when I'm within the portal.
28:14 Yeah, I want to hear all that too, so much.
28:16 I want to hear the life review is a standard creature of MD.
28:20 E people have their life pass before their eyes.
28:22 But I was offered by the akashic agents.
28:26 I told you I what I call him is Akashic ages.
28:28 Right.
28:28 Right.
28:29 You did OK.
28:29 I did.
28:29 OK.
28:30 So I was offered by the Akashic agents if I wanted to have Mobile Past Life Past Life reviews, not just life review.
28:37 And I said yes, but I only want life reviews of lifetime that have are relevant to my spiritual journey, not regular ones only so I can learn what I did, right?
28:49 Or what I did wrong in my progress in my soul's journey.
28:51 Yeah, they said granted.
28:53 And so what was given to me when I was in the coma state is a cinema of lifetime over thousands of years condense like an instant download into my consciousness.
29:06 So I saw hundreds of lifetimes over thousands of years that were relevant to my soul's journey, revealing deep secrets and mysteries to me that I was able to recover and retain later.
29:20 So my past life, so again, this is why when I woke up from the coma, I was very confused as to where I was.
29:28 And this went on for four years.
29:29 I was often not sure.
29:31 I mean, I remember driving my car and I was, I didn't, I was in the Akash, I was in, it was in the portal constantly.
29:39 My phone rings and I'm like, oh my God, what am I doing?
29:43 Driving?
29:43 Where am I going in my car?
29:44 Like where am I going?
29:45 I don't know why I'm in the car and I think which, which you can have, we can all forget why we're so much.
29:49 Right?
29:49 But I took the Bluetooth and my son goes because hey, I land at 1245.
29:54 00, that's right.
29:54 I'm going to put my son up at the airport.
29:57 Wow.
29:58 So you're in and out.
30:00 Can I ask you a question really quick when you were looking at the past, when you were shown those past lives?
30:04 Were they always on earth?
30:05 Were you always a human or were you other places as other beings?
30:09 Here's what was revealed to me is that the reason people will think they were on different planet systems in past lives is because this planet has gone through so many incarnations.
30:21 So it's already taken on so many different forms and so many and so yeah, the the the billions of years old that this is this is this version, it also reincarnates.
30:28 And so our lifetimes that we remember from other planets, what was revealed to me is your eternal, your eternally eternally, you are, you take multiple lifetimes on one planet system, but it changes.
30:43 And so what you think is another planet is just from a whole different epic and era from, from, from, from the last time that was last before, before we rein kind of itself interesting.
30:52 So all the souls from any one planet are, are, are repeat lifetimes on that planet from different identities.
31:00 So I was in different areas.
31:02 And so yeah, some of them were pre my prehistory and I don't just mean prehistoric, I mean, in our last incarnation.
31:10 So yes, I'm talking about timing and cities and civilizations that not only didn't exist and that we don't know them like this is long before this planet ever evolved to what it is now.
31:21 So it goes through the Pali stage and the Maha Pali stage.
31:25 The Pali stage is when the earth goes dormant and a lot of life dies and it goes to does that for a time, this amount of time, then it comes back.
31:33 Here's a bit of Bollock.
31:34 That's really fascinating.
31:35 I've never heard that before, but primarily I only wanted to see and asked to see lifetimes within this string of lifetimes where I could see my soul's journey.
31:45 So I could complete my soul's journey to spiritual divinity because I don't wanna keep coming back to end the process of reincarnation.
31:52 So again, I was shown a history of these things for thousands of years.
31:56 And I was able to see the inception of many of our religions and their spiritual path where they came from because I was there for some of them, you know, and so I'm gonna be able, was able to witness this.
32:07 So what happens once you reach that highest state of spirituality that you were just talking about that you don't have to come back.
32:14 What, what's the ultimate, what happens there?
32:18 Let's give it a name.
32:19 Yeah, let's, let's call it spiritual realization with a capital S and a capital R.
32:23 OK.
32:23 So there's enlightenment that the Buddha taught, which is a form of liberation where basically your soul is liberated from the c phenomenon forever.
32:33 When you be, when you attain alignment, that, that the Buddha teaches.
32:37 This is the path of advait, OK, which is non dualism right now in this instance, what happens is when you die, your consciousness is terminated.
32:51 So your soul is of course eternal and it cannot be created or destroyed.
32:55 And so your soul merges with the everything but your consciousness and your body is done.
33:01 You, you completed your journey So the other option is called, right?
33:08 So it's advait and right, is always the is always a in a gated prefix for it sounds good words.
33:15 So, means like non, so advait is D is non dualism is dualism.
33:21 I'm sorry, is dualism and Dwight is dualism is, excuse me again, getting mixed up.
33:27 So what I want the other path is become, you can either become one with everything which is basically like being one with nothing, or you can be one with the divine source itself which has personality and mind and is love and you get to retain your awareness.
33:47 I know about you.
33:48 But I want that.
33:50 Yeah.
33:51 No.
33:51 So I've always, I've always heard that that's the, that's the ultimate where you merge back with source with God and, and it's just pure love and you retain all the memories.
34:06 But what?
34:06 Yeah, go ahead.
34:07 But you have to retain your conscience to do that because again, the Buddhist path, the, the Buddhist path of, of monism is that you become one with everything, but your consciousness terminates and again, the Buddhist and same with the child is in, in the, in the oddly the oddly path within, within yoga, they teach the same thing that when you, when your life ends, your consciousness ends.
34:27 So you can have awareness of it.
34:28 So you're in that, that perfect beauty and spirituality, but you have no awareness of it because you have no way to perceive it because you have no mind anymore.
34:36 Sure.
34:37 Now the again, the other option that the other option that the Sanskrit text teach is or you can attain spiritual union and keep your conscience, you're gonna be conscience becomes demonized.
34:49 Yeah.
34:50 So instead of having a material mind, it, it becomes divin because your, because your regular conscious cannot handle the divinity.
34:55 So you become Devin, then you become one with the divine power and you get to experience and be aware of it as well.
35:01 Yeah, why would anyone choose the other route?
35:04 They don't know any better.
35:06 And you know, it's like, it's like Buddhists, look at the Buddha as a person that became enlightened, Santan Darma Hindus, look at the Buddha and say no, he's an avatar.
35:22 He came on a mission to teach the ad path of monism.
35:28 So because many people were not accepting the religious and the spiritual to begin with, they were all rejecting it.
35:33 It was a, it was a very toxic time.
35:35 This is much like much like now many other times in history.
35:38 So he, there are many stages, Shankar Char also taught the ad the path, but he taught it with God.
35:46 So if you think about it, Buddhism is an agnostic path, it has nothing to do with spirituality.
35:50 And God, that's true.
35:52 Yeah.
35:52 Right.
35:53 And so, and Shankar a chai which was virtually a contemporary of his virtually pretty close.
35:58 He taught the exact same thing, the eighth, the eighth stage of yo, the eight, the eight paths of the Buddha and the eighth stage of yo to attain union.
36:06 And again, same thing, the difference is is that the consciousness terminates.
36:10 And so the, to me personally, I think the highest form, the ultimate journey would be to attain divine love, awareness and to live to exist in that forever.
36:23 No more reincarnating the mature world at all to be one with and serve the divine love.
36:28 So let me ask you the way that I've always been taught it and understood it is, you know, source kind of sent us off into these trillions of souls to go have experiences and learn lessons and climb this ladder essentially through these schools back to source back to God, right?
36:45 So, you know, if, if the ultimate is that we're, we're getting back to, to God.
36:52 Let's just forget the other option where your consciousness goes away.
36:57 Then do we ever recycle back out and start over again?
37:02 Or is he just creating more souls to go do that or like what's, what's the cycle as far as your understanding?
37:10 There's no, there's no.
37:11 And again, what I'm sharing with you is what I've said out throughout my life, the eternal, the eternal truth, not my version.
37:17 And also what I was confirmed and verified while I was in the portal and continue to be.
37:22 So there is no new souls because souls are infinite in number, there's an infant and they're all eternal.
37:29 So there's no beginning, there's no end, it's infinite and eternal.
37:32 And once you attain realization with a capital r spiritual, so there's enlightenment and then there's spiritual, right?
37:43 You could, you could say spiritual enlightenment versus enlightenment versus, and spiritual enlightenment.
37:46 Spiritual alignment is when you become one with that spiritual divine love as we're talking about, right?
37:51 And then you're done, you can't forget that you can't forget divinity because you become one with it.
37:56 So you're now perfected forever and that's eternal.
37:59 You're done in the mature world.
38:00 So it's not, you don't, you don't forget and go back, you can't forget, you wouldn't forget that you're divine.
38:05 You, you become divine.
38:07 OK.
38:07 So how do you, what about the souls that are still in the material world?
38:10 How did they get there?
38:11 How did that begin?
38:12 Do we know or is that not you?
38:15 Are you familiar with the concept of original sin in the Western religions a little bit?
38:20 OK.
38:20 The Adam and Eve thing?
38:22 Sure.
38:22 But, but feel free to teach the, the, the concert of original sin, what they turn it into like, oh, they become aware of their nudity and sex and that's all evil and bad and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah Western religion kind of like dogma, right?
38:35 Ok.
38:36 Yeah, that's what they do, you know.
38:38 And God bless them.
38:39 I mean, the, the, the it came so it was eternally true.
38:41 And so the original sin concept come from the fact that we're all in an eternal condition, which is incarnation.
38:49 So it's not a beginning or night.
38:50 It's not like you began one day and then you're, you can't end it, but you didn't begin one day.
38:54 You've been doing this for eternity again, we can't process that concept.
38:58 The fact that you have literally been alive.
39:00 And you say, well, what was the first one?
39:02 There is no, first one you've been doing it for eternity.
39:04 There is no beginning.
39:05 It's been going on forever.
39:08 It reminds me of the idea that, like, all time is happening simultaneously, right?
39:12 Like F lives are actually parallel lives.
39:14 It's all happening now.
39:17 Right.
39:17 Right.
39:17 Right.
39:18 ,, what, what was that was that movie?
39:21 , yeah.
39:21 Yes, that's correct.
39:23 What movie I want to watch?
39:24 The movie Interstellar?
39:26 Oh, yeah.
39:27 Yeah.
39:27 Yeah.
39:27 Interstellar does a great job.
39:29 I love no one.
39:29 He, he's brilliant.
39:31 Interstellar does a great job of just playing.
39:32 I mean, maybe in the theater they're not even know what's going on.
39:35 I'm like, I'm like, as a mystic, I'm seeing and a P and a physical business hobbyist.
39:39 I'm getting this on so many different levels.
39:41 So it is kind of all mashed and meshed up together, but at the same time, it's also experienced separately.
39:47 You can't, you can't transcend time.
39:49 You're caught in the here and now your eternal presence.
39:51 Right.
39:52 Yet.
39:52 You also can.
39:53 So if only in the spiritual realm are things paradoxical, they are simultaneously the opposite of what they are simultaneously.
40:01 We here in the material world, it's either black or it's white.
40:04 It's either hot or it's cold.
40:05 It's something so twilight but still a blend of these two D Yeah.
40:10 That's right.
40:10 Duality.
40:11 And so instead of a oneness and so we, I forgot your question.
40:19 I got lost in my own little can't die.
40:20 Drive there.
40:21 I forgot my question too because I was just so fascinated with everything you were saying.
40:25 But we were talking about time.
40:26 Time.
40:26 Is it once?
40:28 But you have to experience it separately.
40:31 But but here's the thing.
40:33 Keep in mind, see when you get to the eternal truth, where are the emotions can be because they're just so beautiful and they're just, they're so because they give us the eternal truth because they love us because the, the pure love, God is pure love.
40:46 And I would say she because the, the love aspect of God, the love aspect to me is very feminine.
40:52 And so keep in mind the Buddhist vulnerable truths, life is suffering, the cause of suffering is desiring to end suffering.
41:02 You must end desiring, you can do this in this lifetime.
41:07 Hm Same with all the other paths of yo, the strong yo, which is the eightfold path.
41:13 Every path teaches you this axiom that you can do this in an instant.
41:19 The sage Patanjali that wrote the Yo Garshin about the strong yo.
41:22 He said in the beginning, he begins the text with saying, I'm going to now explain to you the path of a strong yo, the a path you all know be going to yo.
41:31 So you know about a strong yo, you're your yoga teacher.
41:34 So, right?
41:34 So then he says, beware, very few of you will ever, ever, ever attain enlightenment, spiritual organization through this process is so hard.
41:46 And those of you who do it will take many, many, many lifetimes to pull it off.
41:51 And in the end, at the very end, when you get done with all the other path, branches of the, of the path of yo, you have to do one more thing, complete and total surrender of your heart will and mind to the God power.
42:06 And he says, or you can just do bakki anyway.
42:09 And he goes on but you explain and I'm like who or wait?
42:12 Wait, wait, wait, wait, where is that?
42:15 Where is that short?
42:16 About?
42:16 What's that like?
42:18 I'm gonna try that.
42:19 The point is the Buddha teaches the same thing in the eightfold path.
42:24 Go through all the eightfold path and exercise in the stages of a Buddhism.
42:27 And you get to the, to somebody.
42:29 Now what happened to somebody?
42:31 You be, you attain nothingness within your conscience, you have no desires, no will nothing.
42:35 And he and he says to you and then you have to stop that too.
42:41 Now, I have seen moments of somebody in B, in, in, in Kirton, in, in, in, in Kino, I've had, I've had and I'm like, oh my God.
42:49 And then I'm aware of it.
42:50 I'm like, oh my God, this is amazing.
42:51 Oh, there it goes.
42:53 Yes.
42:53 Since you're aware of it.
42:54 Yeah.
42:54 That's right.
42:54 Because you're aware because you're like, what is beautiful but that, that runs it.
42:58 You can't have that.
42:59 That's you, that's ego.
43:00 And so the final stage, the Buddha teaches Shankar Acharia in Abe and Monism.
43:08 All these teach you at the very end.
43:10 So one last thing to do.
43:11 So when in Buddha forget you're focusing on the ya, the candle flame, all these things to get your mind completely point focused right on one thing and that's it.
43:20 Nothing, everything else is gone.
43:20 Then you let the candle go, then you let that the Ya go, then guess what the, the mantras got, whatever you're fusing that has to go to.
43:27 It'd be completely no mind for true somebody.
43:29 Right.
43:30 Yeah.
43:31 And so what they're teaching you is you can't do this.
43:38 You're not capable, you're a stupid human in a stupid human body and you're, you're limited in your kind because you're not on the only thing that's divine about you is your soul, which is already divine, but your mind is not.
43:48 And in your mind for you, if your mind is gonna be di it has to be graced.
43:53 It has to be through the power of grace, which is God's power of love.
43:56 And that has to be, and that can only be when you completely dissolve and let go of your ego and yourself and your desire and simply just want love and that's it.
44:06 So only the God power can take that last stage with you.
44:10 So you or, and, and the, or you can just do Bakti is or you can just cut through all that.
44:16 And again, you can do this in the side time simply, right?
44:18 You can skip all that and just surrender completely.
44:20 If you can do it and just surrender to love, right?
44:23 Which is, that's it.
44:24 When you have complete surrender, then you have to do any of the stages.
44:27 But the era saints, the enlightened masters, they don't do yoga, they don't do yoga, they don't meditate, they end because already there.
44:34 Yeah, they don't do anything because they are already just constantly absorbed him.
44:38 So Ramakrishna Parma Ha are you familiar with the name?
44:41 Rama Krishna Par Mahan, a great saint in the turn of the century?
44:45 Look him up, you'll love him.
44:46 OK.
44:47 He was the path of yoga is basically in the US and came to the West probably because of his two disciples, Yogananda and not, not Yogananda.
44:58 Yeah.
44:58 Vivekananda.
44:59 OK.
45:00 OK.
45:01 So yeah, he was his guru.
45:02 OK.
45:03 Vivekananda.
45:03 So at the end of Ramakrishna Parma Hans's life.
45:09 He had brain cancer and his disciples went to him and said, master, you're one with the, with the divine presence.
45:17 You're, you're, you're one with your avatars.
45:20 Why don't you just ask them to relieve you of all the suffering and pain?
45:23 He said, why would I take my mind out of loving God for one moment, for something so selfish and trivial?
45:29 I love that.
45:31 Right?
45:32 Saint Francis was lying in a ditch after being beaten near to death by two robbers and he's lying in a ditch, he gets rescued because two passerbys heard him singing and we went, when they went to rest him, he got mad at them because he was like, why are you interrupting me?
45:52 I am I am saying to God, I am in love.
45:54 Why?
45:54 What are you bothering me for?
45:56 He was dying.
45:57 He wasn't gravely.
45:57 That's how joy was in God's love.
46:00 Yeah.
46:00 So when we swim in to that level, when we get to that point, we just don't, then we don't need to do anything.
46:08 Yeah, you're just there.
46:09 You're in that moment.
46:10 That's right.
46:11 And so Ram Krar Mahan, you know, I I wrote that often because as I get mired by and, and shackled by my own sorrows and my fears.
46:21 I remind myself, I'm not dying of brain cancer.
46:24 I've had some very, very serious things going on.
46:25 But how dare I, how dare I do anything.
46:29 So I try to take my mind out of that and remind myself this is only temporary.
46:33 It does not matter.
46:34 This is one in a million of different lifetimes where you suffered in many of them.
46:37 You've had great ones and it doesn't matter because in the internal concept, you won't even think about this.
46:42 You don't remember it.
46:43 I've, I was just having that conversation with someone where they're like, oh, there's so much suffering in life.
46:48 But it's like if you stretch out the timelines and you look at all the lives connected, it tells a bigger story than that, right?
46:55 It does, it does.
46:56 But Kris, keep in mind you suffered in most of them.
46:59 Once you become spiritually aware, the dark night of the soul is keep in mind what, what Saint John of the cross was writing about was with dark night of the soul.
47:07 He's writing about when a soul, when a, when a when a human wakes up spiritually and realizes, oh my God, I am never gonna find any true actual happiness in this world.
47:19 It doesn't exist.
47:20 And so the dark night is when they realized this is all bogus.
47:26 I, I can't, I, I'm wasting my time.
47:28 I had to lose spiritual and that's it.
47:29 And even that, I mean, a dark knight because I can't attain it right now.
47:34 And I can't, I can't live with it.
47:35 I can't, I'm not with it and I can't live without it.
47:38 And so the multiple lifetimes that we do on this dark night.
47:43 So there is this string of lifetimes and yes, in the overall span of things, it's just one little bit of suffering.
47:51 But overall, you're always the bottom line is, there's just one eternal truth and that's God and that's the spiritual power and nothing else.
48:00 That's the only true Dharma.
48:02 The only true Dharm is spiritual Dharma.
48:04 The Sanskrit texts that the, the B teaches that the only true Dar is spiritual Dharm.
48:08 And so therefore, if you're not doing something spiritual, you're wasting your time and you're gonna continue to suffer.
48:12 So even if I'm not suffering per se, as we conventionally know it, I'm very aware that I'm trapped in mature phenomenon.
48:19 I don't wanna be, yeah, you're gonna be right?
48:23 And I don't want to come back.
48:25 OK.
48:25 So I have to ask you, you, you asked when you were in the portal during your coma, show me the lifetimes that where I had spiritual growth, right?
48:33 So I can see my spiritual journey.
48:34 How are you doing?
48:35 What, what kind of information do you get?
48:38 Where are you in the journey?
48:41 Do you be happy with your growth?
48:42 Here, here's my, my own theory on how, what's revealed and, and what, what you, what's disclosed to you.
48:48 First of all, it's above your pay grade.
48:50 You don't get to know that because here's why, OK.
48:53 And I'm not telling you what a guru or teacher actually said to me, I'm telling you what I've had to kind of theorize on my own.
48:58 So I wanna make sure I, I always qualify an eternal truth and my own version, my own perspective of these.
49:04 So here's what my theory is that my guru.
49:10 Well, I sat at the feet of many times throughout this lifetime.
49:13 I mean, literally, he was a human on that.
49:14 He was not human, but he was a spiritual being honest, but he was an avatar.
49:18 And so I was with him many times and many people would ask him.
49:21 So where am I on my path?
49:22 Where am I on my journey?
49:23 My soul's journey.
49:24 I mean, I like to know where and you just blow it off.
49:27 OK?
49:28 Because you can't know that because one of few things is gonna happen if you see yourself as doing really well and you're gonna get prideful, you're gonna ego and you're gonna blow it all right and you get lazy because you're gonna be like, oh cool.
49:38 I'm doing really well.
49:40 Yeah, that's right.
49:41 So they don't, they don't, so they're trying to protect you from yourself or you're gonna be like, oh my God, I'm like so far away.
49:46 Like what's the point?
49:48 Yeah, that makes sense.
49:49 That's good.
49:49 You're never, you're never gonna be like, OK, cool.
49:51 I'm, I'm, it's, you're never just gonna be, can tell you're either gonna think you're either gonna develop ego or soul and both of those work against you?
49:58 But do you think that we find out in between lifetimes where we're at?
50:02 Because we have to, oh, you absolutely do.
50:04 Right.
50:05 Because we have to plan out our next lifetime and we wanna learn.
50:09 Ok.
50:09 So, I also, in my life, my death experience had life preview.
50:14 , so you got this life preview or other life.
50:19 Both.
50:20 It was shown what I and it isn't like these are, there's a difference between hard destinies and soft destinies.
50:27 Soft destinies are things you can change.
50:30 Hard destinies, life, death, birth,, some kind of family really winning a lottery and getting cancer are hard destinies.
50:40 Everything else, other things may be soft destinies.
50:42 And so what I was, we do what is revealed with a preview is it wasn't just for this lifetime.
50:50 I was given a preview of what I could expect that's coming up so I can learn how to deal with it.
50:55 And I was also given a brief preview on many different lives that I could have in the future based on what I did in this lifetime.
51:02 So it's kind of like the ghost of Christmas Future.
51:04 Yeah.
51:05 Ok.
51:06 Dickens was pretty brilliant and I'm not even, I'm not even, I'm not a fan of his work actually, but he's actually he was actually aware of his c I mean, that is a phenomenal story.
51:14 It is.
51:15 And so the ghost of Christmas Future literally is showing you what you can do if you don't straight your way.
51:20 And so the way preview many people in many indie years you probably probably met with many of them, haven't you?
51:25 Mhm.
51:26 And I've gone down those rabbit holes.
51:27 Yeah, that's right.
51:28 And so the thing is nde most of them will tell you the, the Life Preview, the life review, right?
51:35 But very few will tell you Life preview.
51:37 The thing is what was revealed to me is that we all experience it.
51:40 Whether when you're within the portal, when you're in between life and death, you experience both no matter what.
51:44 It's a, it's a stable stand up part of the procedure.
51:47 But most people don't retain my preview.
51:50 I retain mine because I did a lot of conscious work before I went into this thing.
51:54 I was already, I was already a mystic and qualified in many areas.
51:57 And so my life preview and again, I don't know if this is special.
52:00 I don't know if I was offered some, I don't remember that.
52:02 All I know is that I saw a preview of what I was about to endure and I was terrified because I saw what I was about to the loss I was going to experience.
52:11 Hm.
52:12 This book is beautiful and it's a triumph over tragedy.
52:18 But Kris, it's also as life is.
52:21 Some of the tragedies in here are undeniably just shocking and devastating and very emotional and the triumphs are, are proportionate.
52:32 And so I was given this view before it was released back to my body while she was laying in a hospital bed and, and I was asking the akashic s, how am I gonna deal with this?
52:44 Like I don't wanna deal with that.
52:46 What am I gonna do?
52:47 Like I'm not gonna be able to get along.
52:48 I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna be able to connect or I'm not gonna remember anything.
52:51 I'm not gonna, I don't even know who I am.
52:53 I'm, how am I gonna cope with this?
52:55 How's this gonna help me in my spirits with my soul's journey?
52:57 But I'm gonna be so confused.
53:00 And then I was also given my preview of maybe for future lifetimes based on the decisions I made in this one, whether I went back to a material life or whether I went back to a spiritual life.
53:11 So as we see with the Dickens story with Ebenezer Scrooge that he's shown that this is what's gonna happen.
53:18 If you stay a bad man, then he goes back, you know what I'm gonna change, right?
53:22 This instance, you can change your karma in their soft destinies.
53:26 And so I was already on a spiritual path.
53:29 So it wasn't for me an option, whether I was gonna go back to being spiritual or not.
53:34 I don't know I was just, it's, it's not that I learned new things within the portal.
53:39 It's that the things already knew and the things that I learned were verified and I was given absolute evidence of them and it is deepened, what I knew what I was already doing.
53:49 Spiritually deepened on, on levels that to this day continue to expand.
53:54 So what's one thing that you had believed that was affirmed while you were in the portal?
54:00 Well, again, having been able to learn from a Rosic saint enlightened guru for many, many years, I became a devotee to an enlightened master.
54:08 And, and again, I'm not talking about something that it exists in the celestial space within my mind.
54:13 I'm saying like literally for somebody that I mean his pictures on the wall over here, OK.
54:18 And so studying all my life, all the eternal truth.
54:26 I accepted all these to be true.
54:28 So I already had this mass amount of knowledge of it.
54:31 And so again, was verified is that you are an eternal soul.
54:35 You're trapped in mature phenomena.
54:38 The only way out is true through true.
54:39 Surrender to you to be a spiritual person, not a human, not, don't make it a side feature of your, of your lifetime, make it the only thing that matters.
54:46 And so continue, it wasn't about, don't do this and start that like Ebony is a Scrooge.
54:51 For me, it was continue to do this and do it wholeheartedly and just do not stop just you.
54:56 And it was kind of like a little pat said, you're doing well, but just don't just keep it up, keep it going.
55:01 And so the affirmation of this and what I get the message for me and for everyone is, don't give up, don't be mindless of your spiritual life.
55:13 It's the only thing that matters.
55:14 Your body comes and goes, it dies and it gets reborn.
55:17 But your soul is eternal.
55:19 And this what you have to feed is your soul.
55:21 And this is what I'm trying to do with my, my work, my books, I mean, I have, I think eight books.
55:27 Now, this is, this is the whole thing.
55:30 This is book down into four books.
55:31 So the Cosmic Consciousness series of books, here's one on tarot.
55:39 And you can see it's a very thin book and teaches you how to use it.
55:42 And again, Kabbalah Tree of Life, cosmic consciousness, the path of yoga and what they do is they don't just teach you what they are.
55:51 Tarot is not a form of divination.
55:54 It is a system for spiritual elimination and people don't know that many people don't know that.
55:59 And I've known that for, since I was young, a deck is created as a pictorial imagery of the Tree of Life of cabals, tree of Life.
56:08 And it is a way to teach you how to transcend from material to spirituality.
56:13 And so the message is simple for all of us, don't stop and don't give up and no matter what is going on in your material life continue to reshape that and reframe that into spiritual context because all the matters, the only true darn is spiritual dar.
56:28 Yeah.
56:28 And you always have a choice, right?
56:30 You can always choose to become more awakened when adversity happens, more conscious.
56:35 See the the spiritual side of it or you can go less awakened and less conscious, right?
56:41 You can fall into ego traps another great point.
56:44 And thank you for bringing that up because I might have forgotten it.
56:46 And I, I would have.
56:47 And so I think that's critical.
56:51 People think that when they have a spiritual awakening, they're never gonna go back to sleep.
56:55 And let me tell you as a teacher and a healer myself, I see it all the time.
56:59 People that when my first ones, when I would help people kind of get that spiritual awakening going.
57:04 And I'm thinking great my job again as an addiction counselor.
57:07 Well, they hit their rock bottle, I guess my job is done.
57:09 I'm, they're good people that hit rock Bob can still use drugs again and have the RS unfold and people that become spiritually aware often fall back to sleep.
57:18 And one in this book tells you a story of my soul mate that did just that, that.
57:23 And I'm like, how can you possibly not remember?
57:26 How can you not, how can you possibly lose sight of and lose the significance of what's going on with you on a spiritual and soulful level?
57:32 How can you how can you be?
57:34 But people do it all the time being and here's why, because it's a defense mechanism because as you know, Chris, spiritual life is hard.
57:42 It ain't all beauty.
57:43 Kumbaya yoga and organic, organic, organic food.
57:47 Is it?
57:48 No, it's a dark night of the soul and it challenges you and test you and it will take you to a place you've never been before and it's challenging and many people are like, you know what?
57:56 I don't wanna deal with that and I don't blame them a lot of times.
57:58 I don't either.
57:59 But our choice is to either deal with it now or deal with it in future lifetimes and again and again and again and again and so unfortunately, I see people go back to sleep all the time and what I'm reminding them always is don't just be spiritually awake, create, continue to work with it and sustain it.
58:14 You can't just go to the gym once and be fit, you gotta continue to go to the gym and eat right to stay healthy, right?
58:19 So that's why I look at myself as more of a spiritual, I look at myself as a spiritual fitness trainer.
58:24 I I'm here to help.
58:25 I'm like your coach, I'm in there like, like getting there and practice.
58:28 Here's the knowledge and here's the practice, but you gotta do the work, you know, and that's so my guru did for me.
58:33 He said, here's the knowledge here's the truth.
58:35 And if you do the work, because I'm an enlightened master, I'm gonna also grace you with the results.
58:39 And so I can't, I can't go through the results.
58:41 I really do is teach on the path.
58:43 But when you align yourself with a spiritual force, like an enlightened master present or not present well, then they, they, they impart grace upon you.
58:56 And the grace is that you get the results of it.
58:58 And again, we're not talking about a happiness, Kumbaya, joy and whistles and, and happy.
59:03 It's simply I would call it the difference between happiness and fulfillment, which do you want happiness or fulfillment?
59:11 All of that.
59:12 Yeah, that's great.
59:14 My gosh, I feel like I could talk to you for hours.
59:16 There's still so much I want to know about like how you recovered from your NDE and all these things, but I were already at an hour and I'm just so grateful that you spent this time with me.
59:27 So thank you for imparting so much wisdom.
59:30 I learned so much.
59:32 Tell people what you're working on now, how they can find you.
59:36 You know, I'm sure a lot of listeners wanna come work with you now, that'd be great within the portal.com.
59:41 Real simple.
59:42 Here's the book, OK?
59:43 Within the portal.com on the website I have.
59:48 So tomorrow, for example, I'm giving a free, the free classes and it's online and some, some people come in person where I'm at in California.
59:57 And so we have free classes.
59:58 I do readings.
59:59 Those people get, usually buy.
1:00:01 I'm also, by the way, this is brand new.
1:00:05 So, you're the first person in the first podcast.
1:00:08 You, you, you, you're the groundbreaker, you're the innovator here.
1:00:11 So,, the book is four books.
1:00:15 It's four acts act one, act, act 34, act one is for free on our website right now and download ebook.
1:00:21 Hm.
1:00:21 Cool.
1:00:22 Very cool.
1:00:23 You can get it for free.
1:00:24 You go to the landing page.
1:00:26 It's right there, scroll down and it'll tell you right there, just click on it.
1:00:28 It says $0.
1:00:30 So it's for free.
1:00:31 So I can't give the print ones away because I gotta pay for those.
1:00:34 Now you gotta pay to print them in between covers.
1:00:36 But the ebook act One is for free right now.
1:00:39 What an amazing gift.
1:00:40 So everyone needs to jump on that if you're listening right now.
1:00:43 I hope so.
1:00:44 Thank you so much.
1:00:45 Is there social media or anything that you want anyone to know?
1:00:48 Yeah, there's the, so within the portal, there's a youtube channel, there's a Facebook group, et cetera.
1:00:55 And so again, I'm always like right on top of all that.
1:00:58 So, so there's all within the portal.
1:01:00 It is, is the brand now everything, this little symbol which is part of my tattoo that's on my arm, which was before this ever came back.
1:01:08 This is what I kept seeing a vision.
1:01:09 And so the events, the classes, the community that we're forming, That's what we're we're doing is creating a spiritual community for people that are in the dark night of the soul and trying to find their way and put these, these knowledges to practice.
1:01:23 So the website is the best place to go.
1:01:25 And yes, the youtube channel has a bunch of videos that are doing a lot of views And I also do some of these podcasts too.
1:01:30 So I definitely recommend the youtube channel some great stuff over there.
1:01:33 Ok.
1:01:33 Amazing.
1:01:34 So I'll also have this link.
1:01:35 You might excuse me.
1:01:36 I'm sorry.
1:01:37 So you might have to use within the portal within with Krishnanand on.
1:01:41 Ok.
1:01:43 Ok.
1:01:43 So everyone take note and I'm gonna have the links in the show notes.
1:01:46 So if you're driving or walking around listening to this, you'll be able to come back.
1:01:51 So thank you so much Krishnanand for coming.
1:01:53 I really enjoyed our conversation.
1:01:55 Thank you so much for everyone listening.
1:01:56 Be sure to like share, subscribe, check out my book, change your mind to change your reality and I will see you all next time.
1:02:03 Have a beautiful rest of your day.
1:02:05 Thanks for inviting me.
1:02:06 Thanks everybody.
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