0:00Hi, everyone.
0:01Welcome back to the Change Your Mind Podcast.
0:03I'm your host, Kris Ashley.
0:04And I am so excited for my guest today and I can't wait for you to hear all the amazing things he's going to say as well.
0:11Hi, I'm Kris.
0:13When I was younger, I went through trauma that caused me to feel broken and lost.
0:18But my life changed after I had a spiritual awakening.
0:21Since then, I've dedicated my life to studying and learning from masters all around the world that have helped me to create a life of fulfillment and abundance beyond my wildest dreams.
0:31Now, I'm dedicated to sharing everything I've learned so that you don't have to suffer for decades.
0:35Like I did, I've seen people's lives completely transform and I share it all right here.
0:43So I have Krishnanand on with me Krishnanand on.
0:45I would love for you to just tell us a little bit about who you are.
0:49What's your bio for listeners who might not have ever heard of you before?
0:54Sure.
0:55Well, I became a spiritual mystic when I was a child.
1:01So, and I was pretty intensely involved.
1:04I wasn't, it wasn't just a hobby for me from early on I was studying, I was a scholar.
1:08I was, I was kind of danced in school and things like that.
1:11So I had a good intellect and so I was always drawn to not academic things.
1:16I was drawn to spiritual and mystical things.
1:18And so I became something of an expert.
1:19And then by the time I was in my late teens, so I wasn't just scholarly learning and studying them.
1:25I wanted to know more and more and more.
1:27I could not, I'm a, I'm a knowledge attic and I want the deep things and I want more of it and I want, whenever I find them, like I wanna go down that rabbit, I wanna go even deeper.
1:35So I wanna go to the origins of it, the source, the truth of it.
1:38And then also I want to put it to use.
1:41I wanna practice it.
1:42So I meet a lot of people throughout my life that they want the knowledge and they want the theories and they enjoy that and we all get high out.
1:49But I mean, it gives you like an, an, an endorphin rush, you know, but people don't, but then people start to wonder why they're not progressing spiritually.
1:58And that's why I've kind of what I've been doing for many years now.
2:01Is that a because you're getting knowledge, but you're not putting into practice, you've got, you can't go, you can't sign up at the gym, you actually got to go and lift some weights and do some stuff, you know.
2:09So it's about putting it to use.
2:11And so all my spiritual work and studies was what to use.
2:15I wasn't just drawn to alchemy.
2:16I became a master alchemist and I mean, a laboratory in my house where I almost blew the whole thing up.
2:22Ok.
2:22And I was making stuff.
2:24Yeah.
2:24I was still doing practical alchemy, spiritual alchemy.
2:26And I, and I, and I absolutely loved it and same thing as a bak to Yogi.
2:29I didn't just read the books.
2:31I went to India, I went to pilgrimages.
2:33I toured, I toured the country, I went to Nepal.
2:36I mean, I just went to the sacred sites, these places that many people never even heard of.
2:40And I spent time in there and I sat and meditated in them and just absorbed what they were and sti them before I went while I was there to get that experience and learn what the practices and methods were to develop spiritual and grow.
2:51Yeah.
2:51Absolutely.
2:52And then once you've been there and watched that path, it gives you so much more insight and ability to be able to help others along the journey too.
3:01Right.
3:01It does.
3:02And you just want more and more and more.
3:04And yes, of course, of course, all spiritualists, I mean, anybody, they find something that they're really into, you could say that's a profound effect on them when to share with other people.
3:13And you got to kind of know when to, and when not to, you know, but for sure it's, it's, again, it's, it's a bit of an addiction, the more I pilgrimage to India and Egypt and, and around the world, the more I wanted it, the more I need to do more and more and more.
3:26And then finally I got to a place after my Indie Express, particularly several years ago.
3:31And I'm like, you know what, I don't really need to travel or go anywhere anymore because I saw what I wanna see.
3:36Like, I've, I've taken that and not that there's always more, but I've taken all the big Truy turn in and now it's time to and has been for some time now to continue to write, to teach, to mentor for those who are having their dark night of the soul and lost themselves.
3:49And that's what it's all about is that my dark night of the soul had gone on for, for most of my life and enlightened masters and gurus and stages, not, not, not other worldly beings from other celestials places.
4:02I'm saying, literally, literally Buddhas and stages that walk this planet in physical form, you know, and so they give us all these teachings and so being able to, to have guidance from that.
4:12And I'm like, well, what are the people that don't have that?
4:14I'm not one of those, but maybe I can show them what they showed me.
4:18I love that so much and I've been on a similar journey.
4:21It's, you're a truth seeker like I am and like you said, you get addicted to it and you just want more and more.
4:27And it's, I like to say, it's like every new teacher that I find is like a new door opening in an unending hallway.
4:34Like you just get hooked.
4:35And no, I, I just, I love that so much and I relate to that so much and I, I love that you're teaching others.
4:43This is why my reference to my death experience and what I, what I travel to within the portal is about the in between state, between life and death.
4:54And that's where I was during my coma.
4:55That's what I visit regularly.
4:57Now.
4:57It's been ongoing for many years.
4:59And so I refer to the, the, the spiritual presences that are within the portal as Akashic agents, you know, the, the, the Akashic, the Akashic records.
5:09So the Akashic records again, there's that addiction.
5:12We want Akashic records has all the true knowledge, all the essential truth, all the eternal truth, everything is there past present and future.
5:20And so we want to connect to that and you know, and again, it's not just that you just want more like you want, you won't, you eventually you get to a point where you will not settle, you can recognize the shit from the shine and you can, we through it and you can get the right stuff.
5:33And that's the thing is, even since I was young, I was very cautious and very passionate, very angry.
5:42And sometimes when I was younger that I sensed that so much of what people were teaching were not the right stuff.
5:48And I kind of followed my intuition and instinct and again, went down those rabbit holes, kept searching and searching and made sure that I was finding the eternal truth.
5:55Not somebody's version of them.
5:56Yeah.
5:57Absolutely.
5:58And I like what you said too is that like, you can take all of these truths that you've learned and synthesize them because not everyone is eeking out like you and I are right.
6:06Not everyone is reading all the books and going on the pilgrimages and studying under teachers.
6:11So you can bring that knowledge to people that aren't doing that.
6:15That's, that's my, excuse me, that's my style is I have been since I was very young, been able to communicate things that are very hard for many people to understand in ways that are accessible to them.
6:27I've kind of come from both levels.
6:29I have this high intellect, but at the same time, I'm just, I'm just an old street wave Strome with doping.
6:35They used to live on the streets.
6:36And like, I mean, I just, you know, I just live, I live, I live a rough life.
6:39So I kind of come from both areas so I can communicate to both.
6:42OK.
6:43So I wanna, I wanna talk about all of that first before we get into your near death experience and all of that.
6:49So first I want to know you, you started all of this, this quest as a child which is so unique.
6:56You know, most people don't find spirituality or mysticism until they're much older.
7:01So what was it about your childhood?
7:03Were you exposed to it?
7:04Was your family into it?
7:05Like what, what at that spark?
7:07Hold on to your head here because it's going to get a little wild.
7:10I love it.
7:12My first narrative experience was at birth.
7:14I was born a nuo baby caught around my neck.
7:17A nal baby caught around my neck.
7:19So I was born basically dead.
7:21They revived me instantly.
7:22And so I didn't know this until I started learning about NDE several years ago.
7:26That clearly what I had was NDE because I had all of the, all of the, the side effects features that come along with an NDE from the time I was born.
7:35So I'm not exaggerating.
7:38I'm not making things up.
7:39I don't know how to say it but to say it.
7:41So by the time I'm like two and three years old, I'm looking to walk around me, looking at my parents and thinking, who are you people?
7:49You know, my parents, I don't know who my parents are but you're not them.
7:52Who, what, what are you all doing?
7:54Like, what is all this you're wasting time on.
7:56And I'm, and I'm thinking, you know, they're not, I mean, II I was aware that I was having these very adult thoughts and I'm like, I'm a baby.
8:03What's wrong with you?
8:04Like, how can you have these thoughts when you're a baby?
8:05What's, what's going on?
8:07And so I learned to keep it very quiet as I learned to be able to talk.
8:10And so I was having these very high and deep thoughts and I just figured I was crazy and I figured early on, I was like, don't talk about it because you think you're crazy and they'll take you somewhere.
8:20I was like, how do you know they take crazy?
8:22No, anywhere.
8:22You're a little baby, you're your child.
8:25And so I was already fathoming and wondering and seeking.
8:30So basically what it is, it's called song scars in the, in the language of song script.
8:34Some scars are basically your carry over tendencies and awarenesses.
8:38So most of your spiritual knowledge when you learn it, you don't feel like you're learning it brand new at all.
8:43Do you, you feel like you're remembering it?
8:44Exactly.
8:45Right.
8:45And that is because you are because you did learn.
8:48And so what we're doing is we're resurrecting those things that are already putting up from past lifetimes.
8:53And so we're able to access those and again in the Akashic records and within ourselves.
8:57And so that's where in order to watch what it was.
9:00I didn't, I was pursuing it from the time I was a very young child.
9:04And then of course, I had my first religious experience when I was,, 10 11 years old and I was very angry at the world.
9:10I'm like, these people are a bunch of hypocrites, all the rule and all the, all the thing, all the bad stuff in the world is all in the name of God.
9:17And I'm like, what is wrong with these people?
9:18Right?
9:19And again, I'm, I'm still a kid, you know, and, and so I began to really study theology and religion, not because I was into it, but because I wanted to debate these people in person and defeat them and show them how long the hypocritical they, I want to do it in person.
9:33And, and I did as a, as a child to embarrass them, right?
9:36That's not a very, very, that's not a very spiritual attitude either though.
9:40And so as I went deeper into spiritual knowledge and theology to learn how to debunk it.
9:46I found the truth.
9:47I found the eternal truth.
9:48You know, I mean the the sage and guru Yeshua Jesus said, knocking, ye shall find seeking, it shall be open to you.
9:56He doesn't say sit on your ass and wait for it.
9:58He says, seek and ye shall find and so as I sought, I continued to find that's amazing.
10:06Yeah.
10:06And so I got into, then I got into the occult when I was in my preteens and again drawn to, of course, I was in the Black Sabbath and all kinds of fun, dark stuff.
10:14And that was kind of fun times.
10:15But my friends are into it.
10:17Kind of like as teenagers would be.
10:19But me, I'm like, getting ingredients and potions and making things.
10:22I'm doing an alchemy lab.
10:24I'm making potions.
10:24I'm doing witchcraft.
10:25I'm doing spells.
10:26I'm doing incantations.
10:27I'm not doing anything evil.
10:28I'm doing things to elevate my conscience because I'm intrigued by it, you know, so I'm practicing it.
10:32My friend, my friends are like, OK, you're a little bit too serious, you know, and I'm like, well, I thought we were like, this is just like some kind of little happy thing to do on a Saturday afternoon, man.
10:41I remember this stuff you don't want to know about it.
10:43And so I continue to develop that.
10:45And so then by the time I was in my twenties, I had my first Kundalini event, which is a major one, full blown Kundalini.
10:52And then as I got into ceremonial magic became a third degree ceremonial magician with the auto temple oriented.
10:59I became a master alchemist with formal college.
11:02My mentor was Dennis Hawk.
11:03I don't know if you know what that is, but he is probably the leading alchemist throughout the world.
11:07And this and this, these last several generations, he's up and he was my personal mentor and you know why?
11:12Because I demanded I met him and I said, I'm only taking this course.
11:15If you become my, my personal mentor, he goes, I don't do that.
11:17I tour in le I write, I don't do it.
11:19I said that's all right because you drive a hard bargain.
11:21I get, you got it amazing.
11:23I love that.
11:23See, there's for listeners, I talk about this all the time.
11:26You have to take action, right?
11:28You have to step outside of your comfort zone and, and advocate for yourself.
11:33That's how things happen.
11:34Seek and you shall find.
11:35Yeah, that's, and the main thing, the main thing is not just physically go out there and look, you've got to from your heart, wish it and will it and desire and, and draw it to you.
11:45And so that's the thing is when I feel something, when I long for something spiritual, it's not just a like or desire, it becomes overwhelming like I can't breathe anymore.
11:54I can't, I can't think.
11:55I can't feel all and I'm begging and pleading and demanding spiritual forces.
11:59I'm saying, I'm not begging, I'm not praying.
12:01I'm not asking, I'm demanding.
12:02You come to me in my life now.
12:04Yeah, you won't take no for an answer.
12:06There's no doubt in your mind.
12:08I love it.
12:09So, just for listeners who don't know much about alchemy.
12:12Can you just really quickly, just give a little rundown on alchemy.
12:16What do you do with it on the surface level?
12:19What pose most people would understand is it's about turning lead into gold, right?
12:22Ok.
12:23And there is a practical alchemy.
12:25That's whole one school, practical alchemy is the potions, the tinctures, the ointments, the elixirs and all the things that you make to be able to stay and sustain health and all these other things.
12:33And you do it in a magical way.
12:35In other words, you do with astrology with a whole bunch of other mystical properties so that it's synthesized with all of the forces that are out there.
12:41But then there's, then there's spiritual alchemy and spiritual alchemy is the true alchemy.
12:47And it is about lead into gold.
12:48It's about the leaden gross spirit of the human material mind to be transformed into spiritual consciousness of gold.
12:55So the lead is the human experience and the gold is the spiritual experience.
13:00So what alchemy describes, it's hermetic and so it's Ancient Egypt.
13:05It's before that and it's seven stages sound familiar seven chakras.
13:10So we see this again and again and again, seven notes on the musical scale.
13:14So there's seven stages where you're basically taking yourself from where you are and you're eliminating and you're destroying everything we did.
13:23You know about yourself, your ego, your desires and all that, and you're basically rebuilding it from scratch it's very, it's very intense.
13:29So all the yoga system is the same way.
13:32Chakra yoga, Kundalini yoga, tantra yoga, all paths of yoga really are about destroying yourself, your ego self and being able to be reborn and transformed.
13:40So, alchemy is about that.
13:42And that is the Western version, I call the western version of yoga, yoga.
13:46And so mental yoga, not, not the, the, the movement yoga.
13:50And so it's the western hermetic version of that.
13:53And as the Sanskrit, eternal true San in Dar traveled from the far east or the east of India to the west.
14:02In ancient times, it became Judaism, it became Kabbalah, it became alchemy, it became all these things and it just slowly got a little bit change around, not, not change as in different, as in, in a bad way.
14:13It's cultural, you know, people have to use different analogies, different ways of teaching and practicing because they're in a different region, you know, and so it kind of modifies a little bit and that's what it is.
14:22So all these paths, what I teach in my books and all my work is that I'm showing the unity of these things, not the separateness, how they're alike.
14:31And they're all teaching, they're all teaching us one thing, spiritual consciousness, divine love, consciousness, I love that.
14:38You said that because I was just gonna ask you that you've studied all these paths and all these gone to all these places and you know, is there one that you're more drawn to or are you just seeing the, the, the similarities in all of them and how they're all connected?
14:53Because that is a fantastic question that I don't get asked enough.
14:57I mean, I wish it was always bad because everyone saw someone ask me.
15:00So you're a master, you're not a master expert in all these paths.
15:03Which one do you use?
15:05Do you use them all?
15:07And you can't because the bottom line, if you want to succeed at something, anything in life, you gotta be exclusive to it.
15:12You can't just do it half ass, right?
15:14You gotta be completely committed to it.
15:16Right.
15:17Right.
15:17Whether you're passing a test or driving a car, if you're not paying full attention and doing it committed completely to it, then something bad is gonna happen.
15:24Spirituality is no different.
15:25And so we do have to select a path that suits us particularly.
15:30So me personally, I gain and I've always benefited from having knowledge of all of them and seeing how they all synthesize together.
15:37But ultimately, I see one set of eternal truths.
15:40And so I do advise my clients, I don't say look, you gotta follow my path, which for me is back to yo, OK, I'm not saying you gotta follow my path.
15:49I did Kundalini Yoga and I had profound experience all these kind of things, what I, what I do with my students and clients is I say, listen, let's talk for a while.
15:57Let's find out which, which of the patterns gonna suit you for a while.
16:00Now, I did all these things and I wasn't just messing around again.
16:03It wasn't just because I couldn't make up my mind.
16:06It's, I was drawn to each one.
16:07So basically, I feel like with western organized religion, I started in kindergarten and then I moved up to intermediate and I went to middle school and I went to some of the occult and mysticism.
16:22And then I graduated into college and I went into some of the Eastern path.
16:26Then I went postgraduate and went into the high forms of by.
16:30All right.
16:30So back to yoga as you're, you're postgraduate, I think it is.
16:34I think it's a graduation pride.
16:35And again, that's really just about absolute, just love.
16:38And I know it sounds corny.
16:39But I'm saying when you love the divine and you, and you simply form a union with the divine, do you, do you chant and sing and all the things too?
16:48Then I do my daily meditation that I'm pretty regular with is and it's usually twice a day, evening and morning, morning and evening.
16:57And so yes, I like Kirton and these kins are not just some low, there's no Sun Kirin which is just J sh A we, we hear Ram JJ Rama J Rama J Krishna J Krishna and the, the call and response.
17:15But what I like are called Pod Kirton.
17:18Pub kittens have verses and tell stories and they're beautiful and they're wonderful and they give me absorbed in the, in a, in a store because otherwise my mind just trying to get bored, you know.
17:26So now I'm saying Kirton, I love it, but I can't stay focused because my mind wanders.
17:30But pub Kirton has stories to it has versus, and the ones that I, the one that I use are written by Ross Saints when in India over thousands of years.
17:39So the original, the original deals.
17:41That's amazing.
17:42I've been to regular Kirsan, but I had no idea that there was any other besides the call and response and which are beautiful but oh no, these are call and response.
17:50It's just the difference is that they're versus OK.
17:53So you non sensation.
17:54No little.
17:55Yeah, non really means name.
17:57And so Naaman Kitten is, is Jay Rama Jay A you're saying Ram's name and then just then to respond with Jay Krishna J Krishna, right?
18:06Shri Rama shri Rama Sri Krishna.
18:08So, but the, that's a Namsan Kirton Hodson Kirchen P AD pods Kirton is verses that tell stories that are called Lela.
18:17Lela are the divine acts that saints and SAGES and avatars do when they're here.
18:23It sounds beautiful.
18:24I'm gonna have to go to one that sounds, they're fun and they're wonderful.
18:27And again, the stories sometimes are funny sometimes are just sometimes they're deep, sometimes are intense.
18:32Sometimes, sometimes they're lonely, sometimes they're about longing.
18:35So there, there's a couple of wide area.
18:37Yeah.
18:37The other thing I love about Bakti is the community too, right?
18:41Because you always, you do it in community so often for sure.
18:44I was.
18:44So I just came back from living at the Ashram.
18:47I'm living in an Ashram in the US for about 3.5 years and it was a BB to yo community.
18:52Yes.
18:53II I say, yo, please forgive me.
18:55I say yo, because the true Sanskrit pronunciation is yo, that's what I'm used to.
18:59So yoga is like a British ac expectation of it.
19:02So, excuse, I'm not, I'm not deliberately saying it wrong.
19:05I'm saying I've been so used to saying it the correct way that it just comes out the way I know people think.
19:09I don't know the difference.
19:10No.
19:10Thanks for clarifying that as, and as someone who owns a yoga studio, I appreciate that.
19:16OK.
19:17Well, there you go.
19:17So it's all about the awesome enough for me.
19:19Most of the words with the A after the end of the aspirated A is a British British affectation of when they colonialized India, which they kind of miss they change around.
19:28So it's actually yog it's actually karm, not karma dharm, not Dharma.
19:33Some words do have the, the, the aspi A but many of them don't.
19:37Wow.
19:37Well, thanks for teaching me that I I'm, I'm learning so much from you and there's so much more of I want to talk about with you.
19:43OK.
19:43So we, we talked about your childhood and your first near death experience and you mentioned you had a dark night of the soul where you, you're on the streets maybe.
19:51Is that what you said?
19:53Yeah.
19:53I mean, well, that, that wasn't the cause of it.
19:56I mean, I've been in a dark night of the soul kind of all my life because I just don't want to be in the material world.
20:01I want to live in the spiritual world.
20:02That's it.
20:03They, they they say that people who are here is like volunteers and who are here to like help raise the consciousness of humanity have been a hard time being here.
20:12What's that?
20:12Indigo Children?
20:13Yeah.
20:14Yeah.
20:14And just just any kind of volunteers have a hard time being here.
20:18It's like they don't want to be here because they're not, no one's from here but they, they just really want to go back home.
20:25There's like a homesickness.
20:26Right.
20:26That's right.
20:27Yeah.
20:27Listen, dying was easy and being within the portal was great.
20:30Living is hard and I, I have no desire to be in the mature world.
20:33None.
20:34Yeah.
20:34And, and listen, I've got, I've got, I have adventurous life.
20:37I've been scuba diving around the world skydiving.
20:39I ride a motorcycle.
20:41I have a great time.
20:41I've had great lovers have a good time in their trouble, but at the same time it's just no matter what you do, it's gonna be temporary, it's gonna be limited and you're always gonna, it, it doesn't feed your soul.
20:52You, the only thing to feed your soul is spirit, is spirit.
20:55And so I want my soul fed, not my body, my mind.
20:57Yeah, absolutely.
20:58So, let's talk about your near death experience.
21:00Can you tell us what happened?
21:03Sure.
21:05I was in my office as a private practice counselor, which I'd been working in this office for seven years now.
21:12Under understand that again, I'm not some, some,,, degree caring therapist.
21:18I started from nothing and I built a reputation just helping people to find through their dark night of the soul and resolve behavioral issues.
21:25And I became very successful because I really care about what I did that morning.
21:30I had three clients reschedule, send me a text and that it happens, but not three in a row.
21:36And suddenly I went from having booked back, book back back all day, having 3.5 hours to kill.
21:41And I'm like, what am I gonna do?
21:42So I went on my motorcycle, which I rode to work that day.
21:45I got on it.
21:45And then for the first time in seven years in that office, I left to go up the street to get to the clinic, to get a, to get a physical.
21:52And for the first time in seven years I turned right instead of left.
21:55And I don't know why, I will never know why I never turned.
21:58The left turn was an easy quiet side street into town, which I always took the right turn was a busy boulevard with some intersections to this day.
22:08I don't know why.
22:09That one day I did.
22:11And two blocks later, I had a left turn lane just for me with a green turn arrow, the arrow just for me.
22:17And as he ease out my turn, a full size SUV went through the light hit me in the face killing me instantly.
22:23Now, miracle number one on one corner is a tire shop and out front of that tire shop is a pastor on the phone.
22:32He's only there, which I found just a couple of years ago because I didn't know about this until somebody told me about him because then my memory was gone.
22:39He was only there because his, his daughter kept nagging him to go with her to get tires on her car.
22:44And he reluctantly went, he saw the accident happen was on his cell phone and thought, oh my God.
22:49God, put me here for a reason today and he rushed over and he was the first one to pull my body out from under the wreck, excuse the emotions.
22:57It's not the trauma, Chris, it's when I think of somebody having to see this and witness this and, and be worried and concerned.
23:06I don't wanna be a source of pain to anybody.
23:07And then from that moment, I'm a source of pain.
23:09He pulled me from the wreck and I'm bleeding from my eyes, my nose, my mouth and my ears and I'm dead.
23:15He reads me on my last rites.
23:17He begins chanting and reading my last rights on the street on the other corner is a jack in the box restaurant.
23:23OK.
23:23At the front of the driver line are two paramedics getting lunch.
23:28Had they been in the back of the line.
23:29I wouldn't be here.
23:30Had they want tacos and burgers that day.
23:32I wouldn't be here.
23:33Yeah, they're on the scene in seconds.
23:35Bring my body back to life.
23:36Now I say it this way because by the way, Chris, the moment an impact happened, my, my cons my chita, my consciousness bolted.
23:43I was, I was like, I don't need to be here at all.
23:45So I laughed.
23:46So they bring my body back to life.
23:49I am in a stage three glass galu coma.
23:51Now let me tell you from an EMT perspective.
23:53Literally, there's a stage one which is death.
23:55Stage two isn't much better.
23:57In stage three, they literally put their shoulders up literally and say it's up to God.
24:01Now there's nothing we can do.
24:03It's synonymous with death.
24:04You can look up stage glass glaucoma.
24:08I had ad A I brain trauma, diffuse axonal injuries.
24:11The worst brain trauma known to science.
24:14I'm in a coma for nine days during, during those entire nine earth days, I'm on the other side, moved in the portal, experiencing complete connection, complete peace, complete spiritual union with something that's divine.
24:31And I woke up on the ninth day, ninth day, by the way, num as a numerologist, that's a profound number for this particular thing.
24:38It's an end of a cycle and I woke up on my ninth day and it was on my birthday.
24:43Wow.
24:44So we, so now we get these handful of little miracles and of course, later on as I'm suffering for many years from all this, I'm saying this, these Akasha GS agents, hey, you know, if you could put a pass for one corner and a paramedic on the other and make me look at my brother.
24:57Can you just have the truck miss me?
24:59Can you just like you couldn't, you couldn't, you just make it miss me?
25:02Wouldn't that have been easier for all of us?
25:04That wasn't your soul contract though.
25:06That's not what you were supposed to go through.
25:08That's right.
25:09And so the visit within the portal, my time within the portal, my presence within the portal was not an event that took place while I was in a coma, it continued to go on.
25:24So every time I go to sleep in the mature world, I was totally constant aware within the portal.
25:28Wow.
25:29It was, it was like, so when I would fall asleep in the material world, it was kind of like I was already joining a class.
25:35I'm already in session.
25:36I was already in a conversation.
25:37I wasn't like coming in and then going.
25:39Oh, hi.
25:39Nice to see you again to the akashic agents.
25:41It was like, it was an ongoing thing and I was a joining it.
25:44So it was apparently already there and then my class was my con was catching up with it.
25:48So this was so intense for the first four years that I was very confused about living in the mature world.
25:55I was hard for me to differentiate between where I was at any given time.
25:58Am I in the ma whether am I within the portal?
26:00Am I in my living room?
26:01Where am I right now?
26:03So it was very hard to reorient back and forth.
26:07Keep in mind that when Walker from my coma, ok.
26:11My son and my partner of 10 years were both met in the hospital by two doctors and a priest.
26:18That's not a good sign.
26:20They were told if he ever wakes up, which by the way, he won't.
26:23But if he does, they're trying to ease them into this.
26:28If he ever wakes up, he wanted to be able to take care of himself.
26:32He's like he can be vegetative, I'll never be able to walk.
26:36And when I woke up, I could not walk I could not talk and I don't mean, couldn't walk because I was damaged.
26:42My physical injuries were rather relatively minimal.
26:45I couldn't walk because I did not know how my entire identity and memory was deleted.
26:50I do not.
26:51So, it's not like I didn't remember how to walk.
26:53It's like I never learned.
26:55Yeah.
26:56Did you know who you were?
26:57I had no idea who I was.
26:59Wow.
27:00The, the nurse stood in front of me and said, in a very condescending way.
27:05Do you know who this is to, to my, my partner, 10 years, beautiful woman that I was with for 10 years.
27:11And I hated the nurse.
27:13I felt she was so while I didn't know who I was, I still knew when I was being condescended to and I really was irritated and I, and so I did not know who she was.
27:22And so I just said the queen because I thought I was in England.
27:26Now keep in mind the queen, the reason I thought I was in England, I said to my, my loved ones.
27:31I said, how do you guys get to England so fast?
27:35They're like, they thought I was delusional.
27:37This is because while I'm within the portal, I'm having multiple past life regressions and I'm confused which lifetime I'm in.
27:45So the three of us all knew each other in England in our last lifetime.
27:48And I was, and that's why I was, I was, I was like, why do you think your Jeanette or Brandon might in this lifetime?
27:54Why, why don't you see that?
27:55You're more than this?
27:56I was confused.
27:57I could not, I could not make clear sense of see the lines between past life and this life, but they're all modeled together.
28:05Yeah, we were your son and your partner in all of the past lives you saw while you were on the other side or in the portal as you call it.
28:11No.
28:12So here's what happens when I'm within the portal.
28:14Yeah, I want to hear all that too, so much.
28:16I want to hear the life review is a standard creature of MD.
28:20E people have their life pass before their eyes.
28:22But I was offered by the akashic agents.
28:26I told you I what I call him is Akashic ages.
28:28Right.
28:29You did OK.
28:29I did.
28:29OK.
28:30So I was offered by the Akashic agents if I wanted to have Mobile Past Life Past Life reviews, not just life review.
28:37And I said yes, but I only want life reviews of lifetime that have are relevant to my spiritual journey, not regular ones only so I can learn what I did, right?
28:49Or what I did wrong in my progress in my soul's journey.
28:51Yeah, they said granted.
28:53And so what was given to me when I was in the coma state is a cinema of lifetime over thousands of years condense like an instant download into my consciousness.
29:06So I saw hundreds of lifetimes over thousands of years that were relevant to my soul's journey, revealing deep secrets and mysteries to me that I was able to recover and retain later.
29:20So my past life, so again, this is why when I woke up from the coma, I was very confused as to where I was.
29:28And this went on for four years.
29:29I was often not sure.
29:31I mean, I remember driving my car and I was, I didn't, I was in the Akash, I was in, it was in the portal constantly.
29:39My phone rings and I'm like, oh my God, what am I doing?
29:43Driving?
29:43Where am I going in my car?
29:44Like where am I going?
29:45I don't know why I'm in the car and I think which, which you can have, we can all forget why we're so much.
29:49Right?
29:49But I took the Bluetooth and my son goes because hey, I land at 1245.
29:5400, that's right.
29:54I'm going to put my son up at the airport.
29:57Wow.
29:58So you're in and out.
30:00Can I ask you a question really quick when you were looking at the past, when you were shown those past lives?
30:04Were they always on earth?
30:05Were you always a human or were you other places as other beings?
30:09Here's what was revealed to me is that the reason people will think they were on different planet systems in past lives is because this planet has gone through so many incarnations.
30:21So it's already taken on so many different forms and so many and so yeah, the the the billions of years old that this is this is this version, it also reincarnates.
30:28And so our lifetimes that we remember from other planets, what was revealed to me is your eternal, your eternally eternally, you are, you take multiple lifetimes on one planet system, but it changes.
30:43And so what you think is another planet is just from a whole different epic and era from, from, from, from the last time that was last before, before we rein kind of itself interesting.
30:52So all the souls from any one planet are, are, are repeat lifetimes on that planet from different identities.
31:00So I was in different areas.
31:02And so yeah, some of them were pre my prehistory and I don't just mean prehistoric, I mean, in our last incarnation.
31:10So yes, I'm talking about timing and cities and civilizations that not only didn't exist and that we don't know them like this is long before this planet ever evolved to what it is now.
31:21So it goes through the Pali stage and the Maha Pali stage.
31:25The Pali stage is when the earth goes dormant and a lot of life dies and it goes to does that for a time, this amount of time, then it comes back.
31:33Here's a bit of Bollock.
31:34That's really fascinating.
31:35I've never heard that before, but primarily I only wanted to see and asked to see lifetimes within this string of lifetimes where I could see my soul's journey.
31:45So I could complete my soul's journey to spiritual divinity because I don't wanna keep coming back to end the process of reincarnation.
31:52So again, I was shown a history of these things for thousands of years.
31:56And I was able to see the inception of many of our religions and their spiritual path where they came from because I was there for some of them, you know, and so I'm gonna be able, was able to witness this.
32:07So what happens once you reach that highest state of spirituality that you were just talking about that you don't have to come back.
32:14What, what's the ultimate, what happens there?
32:18Let's give it a name.
32:19Yeah, let's, let's call it spiritual realization with a capital S and a capital R.
32:23OK.
32:23So there's enlightenment that the Buddha taught, which is a form of liberation where basically your soul is liberated from the c phenomenon forever.
32:33When you be, when you attain alignment, that, that the Buddha teaches.
32:37This is the path of advait, OK, which is non dualism right now in this instance, what happens is when you die, your consciousness is terminated.
32:51So your soul is of course eternal and it cannot be created or destroyed.
32:55And so your soul merges with the everything but your consciousness and your body is done.
33:01You, you completed your journey So the other option is called, right?
33:08So it's advait and right, is always the is always a in a gated prefix for it sounds good words.
33:15So, means like non, so advait is D is non dualism is dualism.
33:21I'm sorry, is dualism and Dwight is dualism is, excuse me again, getting mixed up.
33:27So what I want the other path is become, you can either become one with everything which is basically like being one with nothing, or you can be one with the divine source itself which has personality and mind and is love and you get to retain your awareness.
33:47I know about you.
33:48But I want that.
33:50Yeah.
33:51No.
33:51So I've always, I've always heard that that's the, that's the ultimate where you merge back with source with God and, and it's just pure love and you retain all the memories.
34:06But what?
34:06Yeah, go ahead.
34:07But you have to retain your conscience to do that because again, the Buddhist path, the, the Buddhist path of, of monism is that you become one with everything, but your consciousness terminates and again, the Buddhist and same with the child is in, in the, in the oddly the oddly path within, within yoga, they teach the same thing that when you, when your life ends, your consciousness ends.
34:27So you can have awareness of it.
34:28So you're in that, that perfect beauty and spirituality, but you have no awareness of it because you have no way to perceive it because you have no mind anymore.
34:36Sure.
34:37Now the again, the other option that the other option that the Sanskrit text teach is or you can attain spiritual union and keep your conscience, you're gonna be conscience becomes demonized.
34:49Yeah.
34:50So instead of having a material mind, it, it becomes divin because your, because your regular conscious cannot handle the divinity.
34:55So you become Devin, then you become one with the divine power and you get to experience and be aware of it as well.
35:01Yeah, why would anyone choose the other route?
35:04They don't know any better.
35:06And you know, it's like, it's like Buddhists, look at the Buddha as a person that became enlightened, Santan Darma Hindus, look at the Buddha and say no, he's an avatar.
35:22He came on a mission to teach the ad path of monism.
35:28So because many people were not accepting the religious and the spiritual to begin with, they were all rejecting it.
35:33It was a, it was a very toxic time.
35:35This is much like much like now many other times in history.
35:38So he, there are many stages, Shankar Char also taught the ad the path, but he taught it with God.
35:46So if you think about it, Buddhism is an agnostic path, it has nothing to do with spirituality.
35:50And God, that's true.
35:52Yeah.
35:52Right.
35:53And so, and Shankar a chai which was virtually a contemporary of his virtually pretty close.
35:58He taught the exact same thing, the eighth, the eighth stage of yo, the eight, the eight paths of the Buddha and the eighth stage of yo to attain union.
36:06And again, same thing, the difference is is that the consciousness terminates.
36:10And so the, to me personally, I think the highest form, the ultimate journey would be to attain divine love, awareness and to live to exist in that forever.
36:23No more reincarnating the mature world at all to be one with and serve the divine love.
36:28So let me ask you the way that I've always been taught it and understood it is, you know, source kind of sent us off into these trillions of souls to go have experiences and learn lessons and climb this ladder essentially through these schools back to source back to God, right?
36:45So, you know, if, if the ultimate is that we're, we're getting back to, to God.
36:52Let's just forget the other option where your consciousness goes away.
36:57Then do we ever recycle back out and start over again?
37:02Or is he just creating more souls to go do that or like what's, what's the cycle as far as your understanding?
37:10There's no, there's no.
37:11And again, what I'm sharing with you is what I've said out throughout my life, the eternal, the eternal truth, not my version.
37:17And also what I was confirmed and verified while I was in the portal and continue to be.
37:22So there is no new souls because souls are infinite in number, there's an infant and they're all eternal.
37:29So there's no beginning, there's no end, it's infinite and eternal.
37:32And once you attain realization with a capital r spiritual, so there's enlightenment and then there's spiritual, right?
37:43You could, you could say spiritual enlightenment versus enlightenment versus, and spiritual enlightenment.
37:46Spiritual alignment is when you become one with that spiritual divine love as we're talking about, right?
37:51And then you're done, you can't forget that you can't forget divinity because you become one with it.
37:56So you're now perfected forever and that's eternal.
37:59You're done in the mature world.
38:00So it's not, you don't, you don't forget and go back, you can't forget, you wouldn't forget that you're divine.
38:05You, you become divine.
38:07OK.
38:07So how do you, what about the souls that are still in the material world?
38:10How did they get there?
38:11How did that begin?
38:12Do we know or is that not you?
38:15Are you familiar with the concept of original sin in the Western religions a little bit?
38:20OK.
38:20The Adam and Eve thing?
38:22Sure.
38:22But, but feel free to teach the, the, the concert of original sin, what they turn it into like, oh, they become aware of their nudity and sex and that's all evil and bad and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah Western religion kind of like dogma, right?
38:35Ok.
38:36Yeah, that's what they do, you know.
38:38And God bless them.
38:39I mean, the, the, the it came so it was eternally true.
38:41And so the original sin concept come from the fact that we're all in an eternal condition, which is incarnation.
38:49So it's not a beginning or night.
38:50It's not like you began one day and then you're, you can't end it, but you didn't begin one day.
38:54You've been doing this for eternity again, we can't process that concept.
38:58The fact that you have literally been alive.
39:00And you say, well, what was the first one?
39:02There is no, first one you've been doing it for eternity.
39:04There is no beginning.
39:05It's been going on forever.
39:08It reminds me of the idea that, like, all time is happening simultaneously, right?
39:12Like F lives are actually parallel lives.
39:14It's all happening now.
39:17Right.
39:18,, what, what was that was that movie?
39:21, yeah.
39:21Yes, that's correct.
39:23What movie I want to watch?
39:24The movie Interstellar?
39:26Oh, yeah.
39:27Yeah.
39:27Interstellar does a great job.
39:29I love no one.
39:29He, he's brilliant.
39:31Interstellar does a great job of just playing.
39:32I mean, maybe in the theater they're not even know what's going on.
39:35I'm like, I'm like, as a mystic, I'm seeing and a P and a physical business hobbyist.
39:39I'm getting this on so many different levels.
39:41So it is kind of all mashed and meshed up together, but at the same time, it's also experienced separately.
39:47You can't, you can't transcend time.
39:49You're caught in the here and now your eternal presence.
39:51Right.
39:52Yet.
39:52You also can.
39:53So if only in the spiritual realm are things paradoxical, they are simultaneously the opposite of what they are simultaneously.
40:01We here in the material world, it's either black or it's white.
40:04It's either hot or it's cold.
40:05It's something so twilight but still a blend of these two D Yeah.
40:10That's right.
40:10Duality.
40:11And so instead of a oneness and so we, I forgot your question.
40:19I got lost in my own little can't die.
40:20Drive there.
40:21I forgot my question too because I was just so fascinated with everything you were saying.
40:25But we were talking about time.
40:26Time.
40:26Is it once?
40:28But you have to experience it separately.
40:31But but here's the thing.
40:33Keep in mind, see when you get to the eternal truth, where are the emotions can be because they're just so beautiful and they're just, they're so because they give us the eternal truth because they love us because the, the pure love, God is pure love.
40:46And I would say she because the, the love aspect of God, the love aspect to me is very feminine.
40:52And so keep in mind the Buddhist vulnerable truths, life is suffering, the cause of suffering is desiring to end suffering.
41:02You must end desiring, you can do this in this lifetime.
41:07Hm Same with all the other paths of yo, the strong yo, which is the eightfold path.
41:13Every path teaches you this axiom that you can do this in an instant.
41:19The sage Patanjali that wrote the Yo Garshin about the strong yo.
41:22He said in the beginning, he begins the text with saying, I'm going to now explain to you the path of a strong yo, the a path you all know be going to yo.
41:31So you know about a strong yo, you're your yoga teacher.
41:34So, right?
41:34So then he says, beware, very few of you will ever, ever, ever attain enlightenment, spiritual organization through this process is so hard.
41:46And those of you who do it will take many, many, many lifetimes to pull it off.
41:51And in the end, at the very end, when you get done with all the other path, branches of the, of the path of yo, you have to do one more thing, complete and total surrender of your heart will and mind to the God power.
42:06And he says, or you can just do bakki anyway.
42:09And he goes on but you explain and I'm like who or wait?
42:12Wait, wait, wait, wait, where is that?
42:15Where is that short?
42:16About?
42:16What's that like?
42:18I'm gonna try that.
42:19The point is the Buddha teaches the same thing in the eightfold path.
42:24Go through all the eightfold path and exercise in the stages of a Buddhism.
42:27And you get to the, to somebody.
42:29Now what happened to somebody?
42:31You be, you attain nothingness within your conscience, you have no desires, no will nothing.
42:35And he and he says to you and then you have to stop that too.
42:41Now, I have seen moments of somebody in B, in, in, in Kirton, in, in, in, in Kino, I've had, I've had and I'm like, oh my God.
42:49And then I'm aware of it.
42:50I'm like, oh my God, this is amazing.
42:51Oh, there it goes.
42:53Yes.
42:53Since you're aware of it.
42:54Yeah.
42:54That's right.
42:54Because you're aware because you're like, what is beautiful but that, that runs it.
42:58You can't have that.
42:59That's you, that's ego.
43:00And so the final stage, the Buddha teaches Shankar Acharia in Abe and Monism.
43:08All these teach you at the very end.
43:10So one last thing to do.
43:11So when in Buddha forget you're focusing on the ya, the candle flame, all these things to get your mind completely point focused right on one thing and that's it.
43:20Nothing, everything else is gone.
43:20Then you let the candle go, then you let that the Ya go, then guess what the, the mantras got, whatever you're fusing that has to go to.
43:27It'd be completely no mind for true somebody.
43:29Right.
43:30Yeah.
43:31And so what they're teaching you is you can't do this.
43:38You're not capable, you're a stupid human in a stupid human body and you're, you're limited in your kind because you're not on the only thing that's divine about you is your soul, which is already divine, but your mind is not.
43:48And in your mind for you, if your mind is gonna be di it has to be graced.
43:53It has to be through the power of grace, which is God's power of love.
43:56And that has to be, and that can only be when you completely dissolve and let go of your ego and yourself and your desire and simply just want love and that's it.
44:06So only the God power can take that last stage with you.
44:10So you or, and, and the, or you can just do Bakti is or you can just cut through all that.
44:16And again, you can do this in the side time simply, right?
44:18You can skip all that and just surrender completely.
44:20If you can do it and just surrender to love, right?
44:23Which is, that's it.
44:24When you have complete surrender, then you have to do any of the stages.
44:27But the era saints, the enlightened masters, they don't do yoga, they don't do yoga, they don't meditate, they end because already there.
44:34Yeah, they don't do anything because they are already just constantly absorbed him.
44:38So Ramakrishna Parma Ha are you familiar with the name?
44:41Rama Krishna Par Mahan, a great saint in the turn of the century?
44:45Look him up, you'll love him.
44:46OK.
44:47He was the path of yoga is basically in the US and came to the West probably because of his two disciples, Yogananda and not, not Yogananda.
44:58Yeah.
44:58Vivekananda.
44:59OK.
45:00OK.
45:01So yeah, he was his guru.
45:02OK.
45:03Vivekananda.
45:03So at the end of Ramakrishna Parma Hans's life.
45:09He had brain cancer and his disciples went to him and said, master, you're one with the, with the divine presence.
45:17You're, you're, you're one with your avatars.
45:20Why don't you just ask them to relieve you of all the suffering and pain?
45:23He said, why would I take my mind out of loving God for one moment, for something so selfish and trivial?
45:29I love that.
45:31Right?
45:32Saint Francis was lying in a ditch after being beaten near to death by two robbers and he's lying in a ditch, he gets rescued because two passerbys heard him singing and we went, when they went to rest him, he got mad at them because he was like, why are you interrupting me?
45:52I am I am saying to God, I am in love.
45:54Why?
45:54What are you bothering me for?
45:56He was dying.
45:57He wasn't gravely.
45:57That's how joy was in God's love.
46:00Yeah.
46:00So when we swim in to that level, when we get to that point, we just don't, then we don't need to do anything.
46:08Yeah, you're just there.
46:09You're in that moment.
46:10That's right.
46:11And so Ram Krar Mahan, you know, I I wrote that often because as I get mired by and, and shackled by my own sorrows and my fears.
46:21I remind myself, I'm not dying of brain cancer.
46:24I've had some very, very serious things going on.
46:25But how dare I, how dare I do anything.
46:29So I try to take my mind out of that and remind myself this is only temporary.
46:33It does not matter.
46:34This is one in a million of different lifetimes where you suffered in many of them.
46:37You've had great ones and it doesn't matter because in the internal concept, you won't even think about this.
46:42You don't remember it.
46:43I've, I was just having that conversation with someone where they're like, oh, there's so much suffering in life.
46:48But it's like if you stretch out the timelines and you look at all the lives connected, it tells a bigger story than that, right?
46:55It does, it does.
46:56But Kris, keep in mind you suffered in most of them.
46:59Once you become spiritually aware, the dark night of the soul is keep in mind what, what Saint John of the cross was writing about was with dark night of the soul.
47:07He's writing about when a soul, when a, when a when a human wakes up spiritually and realizes, oh my God, I am never gonna find any true actual happiness in this world.
47:19It doesn't exist.
47:20And so the dark night is when they realized this is all bogus.
47:26I, I can't, I, I'm wasting my time.
47:28I had to lose spiritual and that's it.
47:29And even that, I mean, a dark knight because I can't attain it right now.
47:34And I can't, I can't live with it.
47:35I can't, I'm not with it and I can't live without it.
47:38And so the multiple lifetimes that we do on this dark night.
47:43So there is this string of lifetimes and yes, in the overall span of things, it's just one little bit of suffering.
47:51But overall, you're always the bottom line is, there's just one eternal truth and that's God and that's the spiritual power and nothing else.
48:00That's the only true Dharma.
48:02The only true Dharm is spiritual Dharma.
48:04The Sanskrit texts that the, the B teaches that the only true Dar is spiritual Dharm.
48:08And so therefore, if you're not doing something spiritual, you're wasting your time and you're gonna continue to suffer.
48:12So even if I'm not suffering per se, as we conventionally know it, I'm very aware that I'm trapped in mature phenomenon.
48:19I don't wanna be, yeah, you're gonna be right?
48:23And I don't want to come back.
48:25OK.
48:25So I have to ask you, you, you asked when you were in the portal during your coma, show me the lifetimes that where I had spiritual growth, right?
48:33So I can see my spiritual journey.
48:34How are you doing?
48:35What, what kind of information do you get?
48:38Where are you in the journey?
48:41Do you be happy with your growth?
48:42Here, here's my, my own theory on how, what's revealed and, and what, what you, what's disclosed to you.
48:48First of all, it's above your pay grade.
48:50You don't get to know that because here's why, OK.
48:53And I'm not telling you what a guru or teacher actually said to me, I'm telling you what I've had to kind of theorize on my own.
48:58So I wanna make sure I, I always qualify an eternal truth and my own version, my own perspective of these.
49:04So here's what my theory is that my guru.
49:10Well, I sat at the feet of many times throughout this lifetime.
49:13I mean, literally, he was a human on that.
49:14He was not human, but he was a spiritual being honest, but he was an avatar.
49:18And so I was with him many times and many people would ask him.
49:21So where am I on my path?
49:22Where am I on my journey?
49:23My soul's journey.
49:24I mean, I like to know where and you just blow it off.
49:27OK?
49:28Because you can't know that because one of few things is gonna happen if you see yourself as doing really well and you're gonna get prideful, you're gonna ego and you're gonna blow it all right and you get lazy because you're gonna be like, oh cool.
49:38I'm doing really well.
49:40Yeah, that's right.
49:41So they don't, they don't, so they're trying to protect you from yourself or you're gonna be like, oh my God, I'm like so far away.
49:46Like what's the point?
49:48Yeah, that makes sense.
49:49That's good.
49:49You're never, you're never gonna be like, OK, cool.
49:51I'm, I'm, it's, you're never just gonna be, can tell you're either gonna think you're either gonna develop ego or soul and both of those work against you?
49:58But do you think that we find out in between lifetimes where we're at?
50:02Because we have to, oh, you absolutely do.
50:04Right.
50:05Because we have to plan out our next lifetime and we wanna learn.
50:09Ok.
50:09So, I also, in my life, my death experience had life preview.
50:14, so you got this life preview or other life.
50:19Both.
50:20It was shown what I and it isn't like these are, there's a difference between hard destinies and soft destinies.
50:27Soft destinies are things you can change.
50:30Hard destinies, life, death, birth,, some kind of family really winning a lottery and getting cancer are hard destinies.
50:40Everything else, other things may be soft destinies.
50:42And so what I was, we do what is revealed with a preview is it wasn't just for this lifetime.
50:50I was given a preview of what I could expect that's coming up so I can learn how to deal with it.
50:55And I was also given a brief preview on many different lives that I could have in the future based on what I did in this lifetime.
51:02So it's kind of like the ghost of Christmas Future.
51:04Yeah.
51:05Ok.
51:06Dickens was pretty brilliant and I'm not even, I'm not even, I'm not a fan of his work actually, but he's actually he was actually aware of his c I mean, that is a phenomenal story.
51:14It is.
51:15And so the ghost of Christmas Future literally is showing you what you can do if you don't straight your way.
51:20And so the way preview many people in many indie years you probably probably met with many of them, haven't you?
51:25Mhm.
51:26And I've gone down those rabbit holes.
51:27Yeah, that's right.
51:28And so the thing is nde most of them will tell you the, the Life Preview, the life review, right?
51:35But very few will tell you Life preview.
51:37The thing is what was revealed to me is that we all experience it.
51:40Whether when you're within the portal, when you're in between life and death, you experience both no matter what.
51:44It's a, it's a stable stand up part of the procedure.
51:47But most people don't retain my preview.
51:50I retain mine because I did a lot of conscious work before I went into this thing.
51:54I was already, I was already a mystic and qualified in many areas.
51:57And so my life preview and again, I don't know if this is special.
52:00I don't know if I was offered some, I don't remember that.
52:02All I know is that I saw a preview of what I was about to endure and I was terrified because I saw what I was about to the loss I was going to experience.
52:11Hm.
52:12This book is beautiful and it's a triumph over tragedy.
52:18But Kris, it's also as life is.
52:21Some of the tragedies in here are undeniably just shocking and devastating and very emotional and the triumphs are, are proportionate.
52:32And so I was given this view before it was released back to my body while she was laying in a hospital bed and, and I was asking the akashic s, how am I gonna deal with this?
52:44Like I don't wanna deal with that.
52:46What am I gonna do?
52:47Like I'm not gonna be able to get along.
52:48I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna be able to connect or I'm not gonna remember anything.
52:51I'm not gonna, I don't even know who I am.
52:53I'm, how am I gonna cope with this?
52:55How's this gonna help me in my spirits with my soul's journey?
52:57But I'm gonna be so confused.
53:00And then I was also given my preview of maybe for future lifetimes based on the decisions I made in this one, whether I went back to a material life or whether I went back to a spiritual life.
53:11So as we see with the Dickens story with Ebenezer Scrooge that he's shown that this is what's gonna happen.
53:18If you stay a bad man, then he goes back, you know what I'm gonna change, right?
53:22This instance, you can change your karma in their soft destinies.
53:26And so I was already on a spiritual path.
53:29So it wasn't for me an option, whether I was gonna go back to being spiritual or not.
53:34I don't know I was just, it's, it's not that I learned new things within the portal.
53:39It's that the things already knew and the things that I learned were verified and I was given absolute evidence of them and it is deepened, what I knew what I was already doing.
53:49Spiritually deepened on, on levels that to this day continue to expand.
53:54So what's one thing that you had believed that was affirmed while you were in the portal?
54:00Well, again, having been able to learn from a Rosic saint enlightened guru for many, many years, I became a devotee to an enlightened master.
54:08And, and again, I'm not talking about something that it exists in the celestial space within my mind.
54:13I'm saying like literally for somebody that I mean his pictures on the wall over here, OK.
54:18And so studying all my life, all the eternal truth.
54:26I accepted all these to be true.
54:28So I already had this mass amount of knowledge of it.
54:31And so again, was verified is that you are an eternal soul.
54:35You're trapped in mature phenomena.
54:38The only way out is true through true.
54:39Surrender to you to be a spiritual person, not a human, not, don't make it a side feature of your, of your lifetime, make it the only thing that matters.
54:46And so continue, it wasn't about, don't do this and start that like Ebony is a Scrooge.
54:51For me, it was continue to do this and do it wholeheartedly and just do not stop just you.
54:56And it was kind of like a little pat said, you're doing well, but just don't just keep it up, keep it going.
55:01And so the affirmation of this and what I get the message for me and for everyone is, don't give up, don't be mindless of your spiritual life.
55:13It's the only thing that matters.
55:14Your body comes and goes, it dies and it gets reborn.
55:17But your soul is eternal.
55:19And this what you have to feed is your soul.
55:21And this is what I'm trying to do with my, my work, my books, I mean, I have, I think eight books.
55:27Now, this is, this is the whole thing.
55:30This is book down into four books.
55:31So the Cosmic Consciousness series of books, here's one on tarot.
55:39And you can see it's a very thin book and teaches you how to use it.
55:42And again, Kabbalah Tree of Life, cosmic consciousness, the path of yoga and what they do is they don't just teach you what they are.
55:51Tarot is not a form of divination.
55:54It is a system for spiritual elimination and people don't know that many people don't know that.
55:59And I've known that for, since I was young, a deck is created as a pictorial imagery of the Tree of Life of cabals, tree of Life.
56:08And it is a way to teach you how to transcend from material to spirituality.
56:13And so the message is simple for all of us, don't stop and don't give up and no matter what is going on in your material life continue to reshape that and reframe that into spiritual context because all the matters, the only true darn is spiritual dar.
56:28Yeah.
56:28And you always have a choice, right?
56:30You can always choose to become more awakened when adversity happens, more conscious.
56:35See the the spiritual side of it or you can go less awakened and less conscious, right?
56:41You can fall into ego traps another great point.
56:44And thank you for bringing that up because I might have forgotten it.
56:46And I, I would have.
56:47And so I think that's critical.
56:51People think that when they have a spiritual awakening, they're never gonna go back to sleep.
56:55And let me tell you as a teacher and a healer myself, I see it all the time.
56:59People that when my first ones, when I would help people kind of get that spiritual awakening going.
57:04And I'm thinking great my job again as an addiction counselor.
57:07Well, they hit their rock bottle, I guess my job is done.
57:09I'm, they're good people that hit rock Bob can still use drugs again and have the RS unfold and people that become spiritually aware often fall back to sleep.
57:18And one in this book tells you a story of my soul mate that did just that, that.
57:23And I'm like, how can you possibly not remember?
57:26How can you not, how can you possibly lose sight of and lose the significance of what's going on with you on a spiritual and soulful level?
57:32How can you how can you be?
57:34But people do it all the time being and here's why, because it's a defense mechanism because as you know, Chris, spiritual life is hard.
57:42It ain't all beauty.
57:43Kumbaya yoga and organic, organic, organic food.
57:47Is it?
57:48No, it's a dark night of the soul and it challenges you and test you and it will take you to a place you've never been before and it's challenging and many people are like, you know what?
57:56I don't wanna deal with that and I don't blame them a lot of times.
57:58I don't either.
57:59But our choice is to either deal with it now or deal with it in future lifetimes and again and again and again and again and so unfortunately, I see people go back to sleep all the time and what I'm reminding them always is don't just be spiritually awake, create, continue to work with it and sustain it.
58:14You can't just go to the gym once and be fit, you gotta continue to go to the gym and eat right to stay healthy, right?
58:19So that's why I look at myself as more of a spiritual, I look at myself as a spiritual fitness trainer.
58:24I I'm here to help.
58:25I'm like your coach, I'm in there like, like getting there and practice.
58:28Here's the knowledge and here's the practice, but you gotta do the work, you know, and that's so my guru did for me.
58:33He said, here's the knowledge here's the truth.
58:35And if you do the work, because I'm an enlightened master, I'm gonna also grace you with the results.
58:39And so I can't, I can't go through the results.
58:41I really do is teach on the path.
58:43But when you align yourself with a spiritual force, like an enlightened master present or not present well, then they, they, they impart grace upon you.
58:56And the grace is that you get the results of it.
58:58And again, we're not talking about a happiness, Kumbaya, joy and whistles and, and happy.
59:03It's simply I would call it the difference between happiness and fulfillment, which do you want happiness or fulfillment?
59:11All of that.
59:12Yeah, that's great.
59:14My gosh, I feel like I could talk to you for hours.
59:16There's still so much I want to know about like how you recovered from your NDE and all these things, but I were already at an hour and I'm just so grateful that you spent this time with me.
59:27So thank you for imparting so much wisdom.
59:30I learned so much.
59:32Tell people what you're working on now, how they can find you.
59:36You know, I'm sure a lot of listeners wanna come work with you now, that'd be great within the portal.com.
59:41Real simple.
59:42Here's the book, OK?
59:43Within the portal.com on the website I have.
59:48So tomorrow, for example, I'm giving a free, the free classes and it's online and some, some people come in person where I'm at in California.
59:57And so we have free classes.
59:58I do readings.
59:59Those people get, usually buy.
1:00:01I'm also, by the way, this is brand new.
1:00:05So, you're the first person in the first podcast.
1:00:08You, you, you, you're the groundbreaker, you're the innovator here.
1:00:11So,, the book is four books.
1:00:15It's four acts act one, act, act 34, act one is for free on our website right now and download ebook.
1:00:21Hm.
1:00:21Cool.
1:00:22Very cool.
1:00:23You can get it for free.
1:00:24You go to the landing page.
1:00:26It's right there, scroll down and it'll tell you right there, just click on it.
1:00:28It says $0.
1:00:30So it's for free.
1:00:31So I can't give the print ones away because I gotta pay for those.
1:00:34Now you gotta pay to print them in between covers.
1:00:36But the ebook act One is for free right now.
1:00:39What an amazing gift.
1:00:40So everyone needs to jump on that if you're listening right now.
1:00:43I hope so.
1:00:44Thank you so much.
1:00:45Is there social media or anything that you want anyone to know?
1:00:48Yeah, there's the, so within the portal, there's a youtube channel, there's a Facebook group, et cetera.
1:00:55And so again, I'm always like right on top of all that.
1:00:58So, so there's all within the portal.
1:01:00It is, is the brand now everything, this little symbol which is part of my tattoo that's on my arm, which was before this ever came back.
1:01:08This is what I kept seeing a vision.
1:01:09And so the events, the classes, the community that we're forming, That's what we're we're doing is creating a spiritual community for people that are in the dark night of the soul and trying to find their way and put these, these knowledges to practice.
1:01:23So the website is the best place to go.
1:01:25And yes, the youtube channel has a bunch of videos that are doing a lot of views And I also do some of these podcasts too.
1:01:30So I definitely recommend the youtube channel some great stuff over there.
1:01:33Ok.
1:01:33Amazing.
1:01:34So I'll also have this link.
1:01:35You might excuse me.
1:01:36I'm sorry.
1:01:37So you might have to use within the portal within with Krishnanand on.
1:01:41Ok.
1:01:43Ok.
1:01:43So everyone take note and I'm gonna have the links in the show notes.
1:01:46So if you're driving or walking around listening to this, you'll be able to come back.
1:01:51So thank you so much Krishnanand for coming.
1:01:53I really enjoyed our conversation.
1:01:55Thank you so much for everyone listening.
1:01:56Be sure to like share, subscribe, check out my book, change your mind to change your reality and I will see you all next time.
1:02:03Have a beautiful rest of your day.
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1:02:06Thanks everybody.